Everything is ready except me

[Can'tStandAnymore]

The SN just arrived this morning. So, finally, I have a box of SN (>99%), metoclopramide, domperidone and famotidine.

Im not sure if I should talk with my family about my suicidal thoughts. explaining to them before, or to doing ctb suddenly? I really want to end this torture, but they are the only reason make it so hard.

 

[dandan]

they are the only reason make it so hard.

I totally understand you mate, I tried talking with my family.... after I told them... now we dont talk no more..
well they dont write me.... and I dont write them...
Im sure if I write them, they might respond... but I feel they are giving up on me...
thats fine... they should've years years ago....

but somehow I still want to find a solution, a way to enjoy life... but its like looking for a needle in a haystack...
yesterday at group reading lecture, we talked about me for a little and did discover I might be able... but I have 18 years being able... but not being ok...
gosh... it aint easy...

my family , mother and brother, are the only reason this , ctb, is so hard...

 

[Nifi]

If i was you i would talk about it before, maybe you should not say that you're going to do it but just say them why you're feeling this way. Explain your situation and try to stay calm if they don't directly understand it.