Everything in my life continues ruined and i need to die but no balls

[downndone2]

Sorry, I'm here in repotition again of my disastrous choices that led to me literally ruining my life.

A poor bus8ness decision, trauma, illness, and effexor withdrawal led to me loosing my marriage, relationships, inheritance, bus8ness and a lot of other things

I was never suicidal until all of this happened just prior to covid. Then covid fucked me and made my isolation comfortable. I was able to snap out of everything for about 6 months last year but since some additional issues came up in Jan, I've been stuck again in isolation and wanting to die.

Other than work, I'm alone with my thoughts and regrets. Then I have physical pain and illness on top of everything else.

I have heart issues and quite literally pray my heart will jusr stop beating every night.

I say money would fix my issues but it won't mend my broken heart. I hate my life so much.

 

[MusicEnjoyer:D]

Damn, i've had effexor withdrawal and it's hell. Muscle spasms, unable to focus, and the brain zaps... The fuckign brain zaps. It felt like someone was drilling my head open.

I hope you are able to find the peace you deserve.

 

[tfnb]

Chris Rock famously said that men are just one lost job away from being divorced. It's not comforting but it brings me peace sometimes to know the value system that women place on us.

 

[downndone2]

Damn, i've had effexor withdrawal and it's hell. Muscle spasms, unable to focus, and the brain zaps... The fuckign brain zaps. It felt like someone was drilling my head open.

I hope you are able to find the peace you deserve.

It was awful part that lasted for a bit. Also had pain and it threw me into a manic rage.

I felt like I wasn't even in control of my own body and mind for several months after

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds really tiring what you've been through, it's horrible how existing here can very easily get much worse and I get that it's so awful feeling trapped in an existence that you hate. But anyway I wish you the best and I hope that you eventually find freedom from your suffering.

 

[The anhedonic one]

Venlafaxine is an evil drug. I was on this poison for 6 months, even though it never did me much good.
I stopped taking it and suffered horrendous withdrawal symptoms. It took me a couple of months to get back to any kind of normality.
So sorry you have been through so much, and lost so much. Life is so cruel to some of us.

 

[Dmoore3232]

Should you be on Venlafaxine with heart problems?