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symphony

symphony

surving hour-by-hour
Mar 12, 2022
779
In life I've been met with failure after failure. Can't stay in school. Can't keep a friend. Can't take care of myself. Can't recover. Why even bother.

But then I got to thinking- maybe, just once, in my final act...




I'll succeed.


How cool would that be.
 
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Marine

Marine

*~ 絶対に 全てを取り戻させてもらう ~*
Jul 5, 2020
680
I don't know if that would be cool, I'd rather find the one way that's eluded me to succeed in love while I'm young even if I die the next day, but I also failed 3 times my "final act" so just to say it's not any safer unfortunately... I'm sorry you're also cursed...
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
45,014
This life really can be so depressing and I know that it is awful and tiring when things keep on going wrong. One of the worst parts about living is that there is no limit as to how bad things can get and how much we can suffer. I'm sorry that you have had to go through all this.

I wish that it was easier to succeed in ctb, the fear of failure is what holds me back personally. It does comfort me, the thought of non existence. I wish you relief from suffering in whatever happens.
 
london3

london3

Banned Scammer
May 5, 2022
584
Every failure just makes the decision to ctb closer and closer. The suffering sometimes feels like its endless and you keep going lower and lower into the darkness.

Eventually you become so low that the survival instinct is not as strong and your courage increases to a point where you will have a sudden moment of clarity and actually ctb.

It does give people a lot of comfort that your ultimate act will end your pain and suffering.
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
2,897
In life I've been met with failure after failure. Can't stay in school. Can't keep a friend. Can't take care of myself. Can't recover. Why even bother.

But then I got to thinking- maybe, just once, in my final act...




I'll succeed.


How cool would that be.
Then again you might fail again, like Jack Lemmon in The Odd Couple(1968)
 

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