TomorrowNeverComes
at the end of the day, there is beauty in tragedy
- Jul 25, 2024
- 11
i need to die now but I lnow I cant. im out of options. everyday i drink and smoke to take my problems away but i know I cant escape. i know it destroys my body but i cant take my mind off of her. its never enough. she was the only glistening hope I had but I know that I was never enough. she wont even look at me any more and i know its deserved. I dont deserve to have anyone in my life and thats why I need to leave, far away from this life, before i hurt and disappont more people. every second I live i feel like it,'ll just be spent hurting myself and other people. i just wish something would just sappear in fromt of me to grant me tje peace thtat I desire but it'll never happen. i hust want everything to be over. im too tired to try anymore, i know ill just pussy out of every opportunity to end my suffering even though I just want to end it all. why? why is everything so hard? i know i am a lost cause but nothing in my body will scream out to me to end everything, its like it wants to torture me and keep in in this prison of suffering. what am i doing wrong? i know its my fault but how come after all of the shitty things ive done, you wont give me the peace of taking it all away? do i like to see myself suffer? am i the only one who feels this way, who feels completely lost without any other options? i just dont understand anymore. if i have nothing to live for then why am I so determined to back out at the last second??? with every failed attempt, i feel more and more useless and I dont know what to do. I just wish I could fall asleep and never wake up, but its never that easy. everything just hurts.