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jawdropped123

jawdropped123

Experienced
Mar 19, 2022
219
Life is just starting to feel repetitive. Nothing is new, just same old nachos with cheese everyday. The sun goes up at the same time and on the same side everyday and the sun goes down at the same time and at the same side everyday. I hear the same birds everyday. I have to fight a fucking mosquito everyday. I listen to the same songs everyday. I only drink fucking water for some stupid reason. I get tired at the same time everyday and i sleep at the same time everyday. I have no one literally no one can stand me and i hate it because i wish i had someone. I wish to just have a partner. I wish i was straight. I wish i was pretty. I wish i wasnt black.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
45,024
My life has always felt repetitive. I see existence in general as being such a tedious and pointless experience. Humans repeat the same tasks for many decades until they die all for the sake of it. All that life is, is just passing time until our inevitable death. I have never wanted to be here at all and I know that it can be awful living a life that you hate. I'm sorry that you are going through this.
 
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melonskylab

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Jun 19, 2022
13
A repetitive life is the best life.

With a repetitive life, you know how the day is going to go, so nothing bad can happen. Once you have a routine going, you can start to enjoy whatever you like to do.
 
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come to dust

Arcanist
Oct 28, 2019
453
Being black and gay is a double whammy. The gay Commminity hates blacks and the black Community hates gays. It's truly isolating. And if you're ugly they all shun you even more.
 
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jawdropped123

jawdropped123

Experienced
Mar 19, 2022
219
Being black and gay is a double whammy. The gay Commminity hates blacks and the black Community hates gays. It's truly isolating. And if you're ugly they all shun you even more.
Yes, yes and yes i totally agree
 
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obafgkm

Experienced
Jun 3, 2022
217
Our memory tends to compress out the repetitive parts, so we don't remember every repetitive event. After all these years, I don't know if I have an hour worth of memory. I can remember things happened and lasted several days, but I can't replay the whole things out like a video player, just can recall some snapshots of special moments, maybe a second each. Altogether 5 mins, or even 1 min, from high school is very generous estimate.
 
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veryhappyhuman

veryhappyhuman

Specialist
Aug 25, 2021
340
As a NEET, yeah feel the same. It's all a blur. I literally can't remember what I ate yesterday or what I saw on the internet today morning lol.

It's funny, the birds and animals and trees I see also go about on a repetitive routine everyday, and they dont give a fuck. Maybe being a so-called "higher lifeform" isn't so great lol.
 
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