conveniently_dead
Member
- May 31, 2019
- 63
It's become way too exhausting. Wake up, and then your like stuck in the day. You gotta make sure you feed yourself, take care of hygiene, deal with family or social obligation bullshit. I used to work but I just gave up. My mental state is too far gone. I hate who I've become and have no indication that I'll ever change.
Most days I'll just lie in bed all day and not eat anything or talk to anyone. It's just like why keep doing this? What do I get? To continue being a hamster on a wheel? I've become so useless all I do is drag everyone down and don't contribute to shit. I try to numb myself with various drugs but you can't run from reality forever.
Most days I'll just lie in bed all day and not eat anything or talk to anyone. It's just like why keep doing this? What do I get? To continue being a hamster on a wheel? I've become so useless all I do is drag everyone down and don't contribute to shit. I try to numb myself with various drugs but you can't run from reality forever.