Crushed_Innocence

Crushed_Innocence

Hungry Ghost
Oct 16, 2019
423
But there is nothing there. We can't give what we don't have and I have yet to find a suitable source. Am I alone in this?

I'm just a shell, a mask a thin delightful veneer covering a black . hole, bottomless pit.

"The answers are inside you.." they say- the only thing inside of me is a grasping hungry ghost.

I can't wait to make the internal vast emptiness complete. To become fully nothing, rather than a constant painful awareness that I AM NOTHING.
 
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Backwood_tilt

UnEnlightened
Dec 27, 2019
889
Yup.

Hollowed out.
 
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Flume

Villain
Oct 28, 2019
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If you don't get love and support from others... then you'll feel empty. And, if after that you get told to look within... then that just makes it worse. That will only make you notice this feeling even more.

This whole look within bullshit is not something to listen to, there's no point. At best it'll make you feel indifferent and at worst some bad soul searching could start that will mess with your head even more. Just stay away from it.
 
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OneBigBlur

OneBigBlur

Experienced
Nov 30, 2019
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If you don't get love and support from others... then you'll feel empty. And, if after that you get told to look within... then that just makes it worse. That will only make you notice this feeling even more.

This whole look within bullshit is not something to listen to, there's no point. At best it'll make you feel indifferent and at worst some bad soul searching could start that will mess with your head even more. Just stay away from it.

You're on point, the whole love yourself first bullshit does not work. We all need other people to show us that we have worth and meaning.
 
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Crushed_Innocence

Crushed_Innocence

Hungry Ghost
Oct 16, 2019
423
If you don't get love and support from others... then you'll feel empty. And, if after that you get told to look within... then that just makes it worse. That will only make you notice this feeling even more.

This whole look within bullshit is not something to listen to, there's no point. At best it'll make you feel indifferent and at worst some bad soul searching could start that will mess with your head even more. Just stay away from it.
I agree. I was in the self help metaphysical world for years trying to fix myself rather rhan seeing a trained professional. I wish I had known then that navel-gazing aint gonna heal the aftermath of trauma.
You're on point, the whole love yourself first bullshit does not work. We all need other people to show us that we have worth and meaning.
I agree. We need people to show us and teach us FIRST so we have a deposit to draw upon when it time to love self and others...... I didn't choose to be empty & all my efforts to fillup have brought me here ti SS. Im done.
 
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LadyAlastor

LadyAlastor

Fading In And out losing time with the two I love.
Jan 13, 2020
151
But there is nothing there. We can't give what we don't have and I have yet to find a suitable source. Am I alone in this?

I'm just a shell, a mask a thin delightful veneer covering a black . hole, bottomless pit.

"The answers are inside you.." they say- the only thing inside of me is a grasping hungry ghost.

I can't wait to make the internal vast emptiness complete. To become fully nothing, rather than a constant painful awareness that I AM NOTHING.
You will trust me, sometimes it takes time but not allot. That's all a soul is.. an obstacle something to overcome then, you'll peace.
 
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BabyYoda

BabyYoda

F*ck this sh!t I'm out
Dec 30, 2019
552
I can't even "love" myself the proper way well while I do take care of myself by others' standards it's not enough so yeah I don't even have a good reason to love myself it feels forced and I feel like an absolute disgusting piece of shit because I love someone else intensely who isn't me but I can't do the same with myself I'm just undeserving that's all
 
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