hey, i understand how you feel. few of the most important people in my life have completely betrayed my trust, and i all i ever did was love and support them. unfortunately, they saw my depression and isolation as a weakness and a lack of caring. indeed, people come, connections are made and as they go, those get lost. its especially painful if it happens when you least expect it, or when you need them the most. i believe it brings a kind of trauma that i, myself, will never be able to get over and this renders life as too much of a useless hassle for me.
i also believe it's wrong to categorize ppl as "normies" but i also understand that feeling, because i found that i feel things more profoundly than most ppl i have met, so i always just end up feeling alienated from them. i suppose we are all unique and some of us dont fit in and end up as minorities, which is natural, but who says we have to agree with nature? i, for one, do not, so i cant wait to leave all of this chaos behind