Everyone around me expects me to be someone I'm not, and quite frankly, I'm tired of it

[Water-Lily]

One of my co workers told me I need to learn to stand up for myself

To snap at people who do wrong and not live my life being quiet

Maybe...that's just not who I am

I am sheltered, abused most of my life, and traumatized

I can't be what people want me to be

I am tired of living by people's expectations

Now with my shitty roomate situation, it's all overwhelming

I don't want to do this anymore

I don't want to do life anymore

But if I complain its:

"You're too sensitive"

"You make things bother you"

"Speak up, we can't hear you"

"Say that again? I couldn't understand you?"

"You speak too fast slow down"

"Just snap out of it"

"Don't let them bother you"

"I wouldn't let it bother me"

"Why are you so weak?"

"Don't make anyone scare you!"

Alll of these....these idiots....ecpect me to be someone I'm not

I hate them. I hate them all

I don't want to associate with them anymore

but I am still dependent on most of them

Is freedom for me possible?

A person without boundaries?

Maybe I'm deluding myself

I don't care anymore

 

[tbroken]

It is the exact same thing for me and the worst part is that the ppl around me are scary monsters. I'm glad that I'm isolated, extremely glad.