Help Every day is less bearable

[LonelyTurkey]

I just feel so lonely. I go to work, talk to ppl and come home to darkness. First thing I do when I get home is pour myself a glass of whiskey. Maybe I'm too dependent on other people, idk. It's been over a hear since I've been intimate with someone and that someone destroyed my entire friend group and I don't talk to anyone anymore when I'm home. I just watch anime and play video games if I have enough energy. Otherwise I just lay in bed, listening to music and watching vtubers stream. I don't even know how to help with this loneliness. I tried posting to those friend subreddits but they're all a joke, no one actually wants to talk. Everyday I sit in my room with the thought that no one cares about me. I constantly tell myself to "just hang in there" but now I'm starting to stop caring about hanging on. I don't feel my families love but I love them, thinking about them cry if I died is what keeps me going. I sometimes just lie in bed, holding my gun, waiting for the courage to CBT. I'm scared to die, I don't want to. I just want this suffering to end, so badly. How many more years do I have to live like this? I'm almost 24 and this lonliness has been life long. Why do people hate me so much. I think I'm friendly and I try to be positive, I try to hang out with people and sometimes I can, but they never ask to hang out again. They don't actually care. Sorry for rambling, I'm just so tired of this constant feeling.

 

[alonely]

I feel this post in my soul. You're describing so much of what I'm going through right now too. I don't know my way out of it either yet, but maybe there is some comfort in knowing that someone else feels the same. Hugs and empathy.

 

[mekurin]

Loneliness is so painful I know that I experience it a lot too. It is hard but finding someone to talk to has helped me loads. I have now a couple of people I can rely on when I'm feeling lonely. While I can't give you physical hugs that you need so badly I can offer someone to talk to. PM me if you'd like and talk about anything.


Loneliness is a feeling made by evolution to prevent us from doing something stupid that could get us kicked out of our tribe but we don't need it anymore. Nowadays it's become one of the biggest killers because of COVID and the ever increasing physical distance from eachother.

 

[Marine]

I just feel so lonely. I go to work, talk to ppl and come home to darkness. First thing I do when I get home is pour myself a glass of whiskey. Maybe I'm too dependent on other people, idk. It's been over a hear since I've been intimate with someone and that someone destroyed my entire friend group and I don't talk to anyone anymore when I'm home. I just watch anime and play video games if I have enough energy. Otherwise I just lay in bed, listening to music and watching vtubers stream. I don't even know how to help with this loneliness. I tried posting to those friend subreddits but they're all a joke, no one actually wants to talk. Everyday I sit in my room with the thought that no one cares about me. I constantly tell myself to "just hang in there" but now I'm starting to stop caring about hanging on. I don't feel my families love but I love them, thinking about them cry if I died is what keeps me going. I sometimes just lie in bed, holding my gun, waiting for the courage to CBT. I'm scared to die, I don't want to. I just want this suffering to end, so badly. How many more years do I have to live like this? I'm almost 24 and this lonliness has been life long. Why do people hate me so much. I think I'm friendly and I try to be positive, I try to hang out with people and sometimes I can, but they never ask to hang out again. They don't actually care. Sorry for rambling, I'm just so tired of this constant feeling.

Could you go out where you can meet people to make new friends ? Like a board games bar or a concert bar, conference, meetup / knockk thing if you don't meet anyone at your job.

Disconnection is the number one source of suffering and death, it's the most painful thing in the world. My organs are starting to fail me because of it, literally. I don't have a 100% solution yet but my gut is telling me that I should start considering myself as worthy of the best and treating myself accordingly, actually learn non sabotaging coping mechanisms somehow and above all meet people everywhere I can even if I have to force myself to go. I'm still slowly reading Dispenza's book (Becoming Supernatural) because of how difficult things are, feeling like Frodo crawling through Mordor, but hopefully I can get this right and so can you

 

[LittleJem]

I am in a similar situation- just a few ideas in case anything is helpful.

I'm currently going to free dinners at chuches to meet people. I'm not religious but in an area where I know nobody. Am considering going to church.

climbing places are friendly- indoor bouldering.

gyms apparently can be friendly

It's a horrible situation to be in. I've been lonely for years and too depressed to socialise. and probably a bit autistic abd weird.

the other thing you could try is something like helping out with scouts. The leaders are generally friendly and then you would be part of something.
ps I am much older than you but the pther week there were two cute young women on bus and one of them had met her boyfriend at church…

Or maybe political
groups or charity volunteering other ways to meet new groups

 

[MrShino]

Just message me if you need a friend to talk with. I agree that going to church will be a good thing. You do not have to be a believer (I am a believer myself), but you will probably meet a lot of friendly people there. Many churches are very good at including people and there are social groups you can be part of. There is often much more acceptance for those of us who struggle in the church than many other places else in society. It's worth a shot at least. :)

Best regards! Hope you will recover soon!

 

[rando8427]

Having a bad day too. Sometimes it all comes crashing back.

I'm listening to music and doing nothing. Maybe I'll feel better if I get a good nights sleep.

 

[LonelyTurkey]

Having a bad day too. Sometimes it all comes crashing back.

I'm listening to music and doing nothing. Maybe I'll feel better if I get a good nights sleep.

You can PM me, I hope today is better for you.