Every day I wake up and want to be dead

[Polly]

I don't not have enough money to live any kind of life and I am just being told I should be grateful to sit in a senior center playing with poster paints like a three year old.

and then everyone is angry at me because that would solve the problem fir them but I tell them it does not solve the problem for me

Thst is not a life worth living

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Me too. I wish I had a heart attack or something. All this sucks.

 

[Walilamdzi]

I agree...

 

[beyond_aquila_rift]

I do too. It hurts so much when I wake up :/ after praying and hoping I don't. Sitting at work right now pretending to be normal.

 

[Polly]

Wish I had a work to sit at...

 

[beyond_aquila_rift]

Wish I had a work to sit at...

I apologize I didn't mean to offend. Job or no job (I was unemployed for a few months before this)- I still feel the same every morning

 

[Nuclear Gandhi]

Mornings are the worst! Seriously, no matter how much sleep I am getting, waking up is always dreadful. So I can relate a lot.

 

[Bct]

Same. I always fantasizing drink a cup of SN or other ways to CTB when I wake up

 

[WeepingWillow]

Mornings are the worst! Seriously, no matter how much sleep I am getting, waking up is always dreadful. So I can relate a lot.

I relate 100% there. Even when I managing relatively okish, mornings are always the exception. It would be bliss to sleep forever and never wake again.

 

[miseryh8scompany]

ya, dexedrine is the only thing that gets me out of bed somedays

 

[AlreadyGone]

I know the feeling. It is practically every day.

 

[BPD Barbie]

I hate waking up and opening my eyes and realising my dreams were just dreams and I haven't died in my sleep. It's heart wrenching. For about 10 seconds when I open my eyes I feel OK, I feel normal, then everything hits me at once and I want to be dead again. Every. Single. Morning.

 

[Alexerini]

For me I used to wake up constantly feeling horrible every morning, but now that I feel like I'm trapped into living with no way out, I've just gotten used to it and just extremely bored with everything in life

 

[Talokin]

Sometimes avoid going to bed because I dread that it will result in the horror of waking up to the fresh reminder I'm still breathing.

 

[NotMuchLongerPlease]

I hate waking up and opening my eyes and realising my dreams were just dreams and I haven't died in my sleep. It's heart wrenching. For about 10 seconds when I open my eyes I feel OK, I feel normal, then everything hits me at once and I want to be dead again. Every. Single. Morning.

I relate to this so much. Sometimes for a minute there's nothing , then it all hits and remembering how complete shit my life has become makes it all so much worse

 

[nerve]

During high school, I'd go to sleep as soon as I got home, wake up sometime in the evening, and then stay up through the night. It softened the impact of having to deal with another day.

 

[Wishiweredead]

Everyday I wake up and wish I died in my sleep. I go to sleep hoping that I die

 

[mathieu]

Same here. Family want me to stay alive but I'm still all alone here.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I hate waking up and opening my eyes and realising my dreams were just dreams and I haven't died in my sleep. It's heart wrenching. For about 10 seconds when I open my eyes I feel OK, I feel normal, then everything hits me at once and I want to be dead again. Every. Single. Morning.

That ten seconds or so of bliss before it all hits home again. Ahhhhh...the only thing worse than waking up is barely sleeping at all.

 

[Cutepoison]

I can sympathize with the above :/