Stripe19
Forgotten Martyr
- Feb 28, 2023
- 39
Life in general has been mistake after mistake but today has been a breaking point and extreme.
any choice, any decision, any move i make is the wrong one
i can flip a switch, and it wont turn on. I can flip it on and off over and over and it will not affect anything.
and then someone else can come by, flip it, turn on the lights, and ask wtf i was doing sitting around in the dark.
To elaborate:
Went to go watch a show and got stuck in traffic so showed late and made it look like i didnt care about my gf's show.
Went to find a seat while it was dark and found out i accidentally took a handicap one
Left the show after a short chat with her only to find out her and our friends threw a party i wouldve been invited to if i stuck around LITERALLY 5 seconds longer
Had some crappy mood so i went for a walk to try to get fresh air and help cool it, and instead just was alone with my thoughts and got sore feet.
Then i get home, accidentally step on my cat's tail, and realize my dogs got into the trash because i didnt close my door
and finally, im here. Just stagnant because im pretty sure if i pointed a 12 gage at my chin and pulled the trigger, it would hit my cat.
I just dunno. Even CTB seems like i'd just fail and seem like an idiot. It feels like im in a room where every door has a different, awful thing to hit me with.
Wouldnt even suprise me if i missed something in this message and trouble someone or get banned because i violated some rule i dont currently remember.
any choice, any decision, any move i make is the wrong one
i can flip a switch, and it wont turn on. I can flip it on and off over and over and it will not affect anything.
and then someone else can come by, flip it, turn on the lights, and ask wtf i was doing sitting around in the dark.
To elaborate:
Went to go watch a show and got stuck in traffic so showed late and made it look like i didnt care about my gf's show.
Went to find a seat while it was dark and found out i accidentally took a handicap one
Left the show after a short chat with her only to find out her and our friends threw a party i wouldve been invited to if i stuck around LITERALLY 5 seconds longer
Had some crappy mood so i went for a walk to try to get fresh air and help cool it, and instead just was alone with my thoughts and got sore feet.
Then i get home, accidentally step on my cat's tail, and realize my dogs got into the trash because i didnt close my door
and finally, im here. Just stagnant because im pretty sure if i pointed a 12 gage at my chin and pulled the trigger, it would hit my cat.
I just dunno. Even CTB seems like i'd just fail and seem like an idiot. It feels like im in a room where every door has a different, awful thing to hit me with.
Wouldnt even suprise me if i missed something in this message and trouble someone or get banned because i violated some rule i dont currently remember.