Ever think of just going missing?

[RacilyDank]

Getting up and walking away from it all. Not telling anyone, turning your phone off and disappearing.

 

[Smilla]

No, i wish to be dead.

 

[Freesan]

Getting up and walking away from it all. Not telling anyone, turning your phone off and disappearing.

Go missing to die somewhere?
Go missing to live somewhere else?

 

[bigj75]

missing to live somewhere else for a little while might be ok.

 

[Deleted_9cKnXB34QG]

That would require a lot of energy which I don't have.
But I think it would be nice to die somewhere where my body wouldn't be found. I'd just return to nature, no autopsy, no morgue, no funeral and so on. Just pure decomposition, without any of the human made up BS.

 

[whatmattersmost]

missing to live somewhere else for a little while might be ok.

I wouldn't mind doing that but my mental health issues/Suicidal thoughts will follow

 

[RacilyDank]

Go missing to die somewhere?
Go missing to live somewhere else?

Either.

Wouldn't mind going somewhere to die as long as I wasn't found. Would be more ok with people thinking I just went awol than knowing I'd killed myself

 

[bigj75]

I wouldn't mind doing that but my mental health issues/Suicidal thoughts will follow

that's true. It's like no matter where you go the depression catches up. Can't out run it.

 

[Ashpac]

Getting up and walking away from it all. Not telling anyone, turning your phone off and disappearing.

All the time.
Then if i disappeared my family would call me selfish

Fuck you cunts I want to be happy.

 

[DeathBecomesMe]

If I do get to that critical point, which isn't far away, my plan is to catch a flight overseas, destination likely Berlin. And then be homeless there for a few weeks before either partialling myself in a forest, or drinking N after getting totaled at Berghain. I will burn my passport and hopefully appear to be missing, in perpetuity.

 

[whatmattersmost]

that's true. It's like no matter where you go the depression catches up. Can't out run it.

I was able to mask mine with alcohol and pill abuse for 9-10yrs since I stopped medicating myself suicide seems to be the only option, or getting back on meds just to try and be/feel normal

 

[bigj75]

I was able to mask mine with alcohol and pill abuse for 9-10yrs since I stopped medicating myself suicide seems to be the only option, or getting back on meds just to try and be/feel normal

I was masking mine aswell with alcohol but I can't stand the health problems that come along with it. Weight gain, liver damage, etc. Meds are too expensive and have side effects I don't want to deal with. So suicide feels like my only option as well.

 

[FadedMemory]

No, because my main reason to ctb is guilt and that along with bad memories is a part of me and will follow me wherever I go.
Besides I'm scared that someone might put my disappearance on the news and that will draw attention on me which I despise. I want to quietly fade away and be forgotten.

 

[Morbidreality]

That's the dream. Next to ctb

 

[DeathBecomesMe]

No, because my main reason to ctb is guilt and that along with bad memories is a part of me and will follow me wherever I go.
Besides I'm scared that someone might put my disappearance on the news and that will draw attention on me which I despise. I want to quietly fade away and be forgotten.

Interesting. My reason to ctb is also guilt, shame and being responsible for a terrible happening/not doing enough, betraying myself. My choice to leave home, and my hometown, country, is to make my last weeks as miserable and as difficult as possible.

I don't deserve any comfort or ease or luxury, I would want the end to be empty and meaningless, my life concluding like a plastic bag windblown and stuck in a fence far away.

If I were to ctb at home, I'm 100% sure I'd make the papers, which I would hate.

 

[Madrid27]

[QUOTE = "Ashpac, publicación: 59373, miembro: 1321"] Todo el tiempo.
Entonces, si desaparecía, mi familia me llamaría egoísta : meh:

A la mierda tus coños, quiero ser feliz. [/ QUOTE]
Metoo hehe

 

[Circles]

That would require a lot of energy which I don't have.
But I think it would be nice to die somewhere where my body wouldn't be found. I'd just return to nature, no autopsy, no morgue, no funeral and so on. Just pure decomposition, without any of the human made up BS.

Even though we'll obviously not be consciously aware of the process, I still cannot fathom the idea of my body putrefying. That's the reason why I'd rather be cremated cause it'll get the whole decomposition process over and done with. I can deal with the first and last stages of the process but the middle part is just fucking disgusting especially having all kinds of bugs feeding and breeding in your rotten bloated corpse, yeah I wish I could just vanish back into stardust instantaneously as soon as I die but all well.

 

[Phro]

Getting up and walking away from it all. Not telling anyone, turning your phone off and disappearing.

I really don't want to waste people's time by searching for me. I'd prefer just to tell people that I'm going away for a while.

 

[Clover]

No I wouldn't want anyone looking for me. And I wouldn't know what to do.
The only thing I want to do is to die peacefully.

 

[bbq1]

Getting up and walking away from it all. Not telling anyone, turning your phone off and disappearing.

Charge your phone to max, turn on silent, turn off vibrate.
Using duct tape wrap it to a powerful magnet.
Place up under the wheel arch of a parked bus, taxi, cop car.
Enjoy your freedom knowing their attemts to track your phone location is gonna blow their minds as it shows it's going round and round your town whilst you are actually 100 miles away.

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[Living_Ghost]

Missing to live ,nah ,cos ya can't escape yourself .Missing hanging in a remote forest then maybe yeah.

 

[Deadinside24]

I've considered that many times. Then I just settled on Suicide instead.

 

[GeorgeEastman]

Wherever you go, there you are. That's my problem.

Hell, it's not them. It's me. That's how you know when you really should be killing yourself. That's how I know. When I know I'm the damn problem. They can all live in this crap. Why can't I? Because I'm a damn horrible mistake, that's why.

 

[Wildflower]

I'd rather go missing because then my friends and family and people who knew me would still have some measure of hope. I know they would/will be devastated. Look at the Mollie Tibbetts case, even after a few weeks people held out hope that she might turn up alive... Sadly I don't have the resources/confidence to do so.

 

[Final Escape]

Getting up and walking away from it all. Not telling anyone, turning your phone off and disappearing.

Yes, or just giving up altogether. Sometimes when I take a road trip back up to South Dakota from Colorado and drive through desolate areas. I think about just parking some place isolated with some trees out in middle of nowhere and hanging myself.

 

[whatmattersmost]

If I do get to that critical point, which isn't far away, my plan is to catch a flight overseas, destination likely Berlin. And then be homeless there for a few weeks before either partialling myself in a forest, or drinking N after getting totaled at Berghain. I will burn my passport and hopefully appear to be missing, in perpetuity.

If you get to your "critical point"

I was masking mine aswell with alcohol but I can't stand the health problems that come along with it. Weight gain, liver damage, etc. Meds are too expensive and have side effects I don't want to deal with. So suicide feels like my only option as well.

Do you have a plan yet? For your SS

 

[whatmattersmost]

Yes, or just giving up altogether. Sometimes when I take a road trip back up to South Dakota from Colorado and drive through desolate areas. I think about just parking some place isolated with some trees out in middle of nowhere and hanging myself.

Honestly that sounds Beautiful

 

[Flightlinek]

I'd rather go missing because then my friends and family and people who knew me would still have some measure of hope. I know they would/will be devastated. Look at the Mollie Tibbetts case, even after a few weeks people held out hope that she might turn up alive... Sadly I don't have the resources/confidence to do so.

Wildflower, I feel exactly the same way. I want to just disappear.
Also, I'm also in central Florida (Winter Park)... we should talk. flightlinek (at) protonmail.com

 

[whatmattersmost]

I was masking mine aswell with alcohol but I can't stand the health problems that come along with it. Weight gain, liver damage, etc. Meds are too expensive and have side effects I don't want to deal with. So suicide feels like my only option as well.

bigj75 when I was taking meds I was able to function since I stopped, I fear leaving my house now,part of me wants to go back to the Dr but I can't afford it & I also can't even leave my House at the moment as much as I want to, I dont know why I can't if I was still taking pills I would-be then I would be taking them the rest of my life, when I was able to go to Dr I was abusing the meds that was all I was living for blah blah sorry I have Not slept in over 24hrs

 

[Morning Angel]

Yes, or just giving up altogether. Sometimes when I take a road trip back up to South Dakota from Colorado and drive through desolate areas. I think about just parking some place isolated with some trees out in middle of nowhere and hanging myself.

I did this too when I was driving through the states earlier this year and was on the I-40 with the big open fields. I wanted to pull over, pitch a tent, lay in my sleeping bag and look up at the stars, and take my N. I said no to myself because I didn't have the materials and I was afraid some cop would pull over and check on me too soon.