Even if I get a n, I think I'll panic when I drink it

[Knbmt]

Hanging, I ended up failing because of sl. When I think about it, I think I would be quite afraid if I drank N. How am I supposed to get over it?
Taking antidepressants doesn't seem to have much effect on me

 

[FuneralCry]

To me Nembutal sounds like the most ideal and peaceful method, I would be so relieved if I had that option, I don't really think it's anything to fear drinking that, as it would just cause someone to peacefully leave this world where they are finally unable to suffer for all eternity. I envy those who can access N and wish it was available in my country, but sadly such a dignified death is only reserved for animals, humans are just expected to suffer until they inevitably die.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

It's such a difficult task to overcome SI and in my opinion it's only possible in a state of total desperation and hopelessness that makes it easier. However N seems like a very peaceful method that should make it so much easier for you. I wish you strength and all the best!