Euphoric after decission to CBT

[swanlife]

Hey everybody,

until now i was always very anxious about the thought to commit suicide. Last night i played everything through in my head and i felt suddenly so good. Finally the war in my head would be over, FINALLY.

It's not a 100% decision but very close, i still give me some time. Anybody felt the same?

 

[kooktae]

What is your method?

 

[planningmyexit]

Same here. The other night I pictured my self doing it and felt happy about it

 

[swanlife]

What is your method?

I'd love to do N, but since is not available i'm planning SN

 

[kooktae]

I'd love to do N, but since is not available i'm planning SN

Can you tell me on PM where you got SN from?

 

[Hollowillow]

Tempted to try sn but so complicated for me. Terrified to live, fail, die, everything...

 

[swanlife]

Can you tell me on PM where you got SN from?

I don't have it yet, just a plan. If not available too it will be Nitrogen thing

 

[HerculePoirot]

I don't have it yet, just a plan. If not available too it will be Nitrogen thing

I'm afraid SN is about to be soon unavailable too

 

[swanlife]

Is it still possible to get SN in the EU?

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

I hate mornings so much. I hate the daylight

 

[makethepainstop]

Hey everybody,

until now i was always very anxious about the thought to commit suicide. Last night i played everything through in my head and i felt suddenly so good. Finally the war in my head would B over, FINALLY.

It's not a 100% decision but very close, i still give me some time. Anybody felt the same?

Yes my friend, once I located a source for SN and paid for it.... I have been rubbing my hands and cackling with glee. My Joy and Delight know no bounds!

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I hate mornings so much. I hate the daylight

We are vampires

 

[Hollowillow]

Yes my friend, once I located a source for SN and paid for it.... I have been rubbing my hands and cackling with glee. My Joy and Delight know no bounds!

Wow I wish I felt your joy about a bus ticket, any, or anything at all... Ooooohhh so that's the anhedonia that people were talking about...? I envy you *hugs*

 

[makethepainstop]

We are vampires

Yep that's me I have only worked the night shift for the last 45 years. I am not a day dog, I am not an afternoon dog, I am a night dog! Woolf woof, wags tail!

 

[StolenLife]

Same here. Life has been a downward spiral since I was twelve and I'm finally realizing that I truly didn't have a chance in my circumstances. Suicide is my only chance of escaping my pain and trauma and finally being free.

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that if I had a method like N I would feel relieved that it's all coming to an end, knowing that I could just exit when the time is right. I believe that to peacefully pass away is the best thing that could happen and the thought of non existence is extremely comforting for me but unfortunately the fact that suicide is so difficult is what keeps me here trapped in this existence. The thought of failing ctb is horrifying.

 

[lionetta12]

Hey everybody,

until now i was always very anxious about the thought to commit suicide. Last night i played everything through in my head and i felt suddenly so good. Finally the war in my head would be over, FINALLY.

It's not a 100% decision but very close, i still give me some time. Anybody felt the same?

When I made up my mind on CTB, I finally felt peace and comfort within myself.