I see suicide as a personal individual decision and personally I'd never wish to suffer in this cruel, painful existence I always saw as such a terrible mistake in the first place. If it's up to me I never would have chose existence and I find it horrific how this existence can continue for so long with no limit as to how much one can be tormented, I'd never wish to exist, I find existing to be so undesirable and I just wish for eternal sleep to take away all the pain and suffering.