Venting Envy

[ChronicPain23]

I envy you social skills, I envy you that you can go to work without paralyzing stress, I envy you that you had romantic relationships, I envy you that you had sex with someone who loves you. I read the posts here and I envy you. Fuck, I feel like a total zero, trash.

I wish someone would suddenly come up to me and shoot me, sudden death when there is no more time to think about my life how much I have missed is the best.

 

[iwanttoleave2000]

I'm incredibly envious and jealous of people who have what I want. It's made me resentful and now has beaten me into the dirt.

 

[FeyB]

to me the problem its to be satisfied at all.
No matter what I get, what I do, what I'll reach in this life, I know I won't ever be satisfied with it

 

[Gaga786]

Yeah, thats exactly how I feel. All of my abusers,bullies and peers are killing it in life. They are confident, they don't stutter, their self esteem is amazing, they can work, they have passions that they follow and they can drive. Someones a billionaire, someone is studying at Harvard, someone does MUN and recently went to UN headquarters, someone cycles pofessionally and is a millionaire, someone recently came on television and I can carry on. These are just from my cousins, my peers are even more successful. Then there's me: a burden, nuisance who can't do anything right. I feel like trash and others know that too

 

[FuneralCry]

I just see existence as being something so unnecessarily cruel after all, it's cruel how people suffer more than others and it's really understandable feeling envious of those who have what you don't.

 

[conarc]

Yeah, thats exactly how I feel. All of my abusers,bullies and peers are killing it in life. They are confident, they don't stutter, their self esteem is amazing, they can work, they have passions that they follow and they can drive. Someones a billionaire, someone is studying at Harvard, someone does MUN and recently went to UN headquarters, someone cycles pofessionally and is a millionaire, someone recently came on television and I can carry on. These are just from my cousins, my peers are even more successful. Then there's me: a burden, nuisance who can't do anything right. I feel like trash and others know that too

Its so painful & unfair. The bullies dont care about anthing/anyone and will get what they want.