Story Enjoying the feeling of being able to end it at this moment

[aspen]

so today i got the hang of partial hanging. When i felt my vision going black and Body going numb i realised that i wasnt ready for death. I was bumped out for a moment but accepted that thats how it was. And even though i decided that i didnt want to kill myself today i still hanged myself again up until the moment i felt nearly unconscious. this feeling of control and having the ability to kill myself anytime is exhilarating and gave me a ridiculous rush of joy.

 

[Macc Lad]

so today i got the hang of partial hanging. When i felt my vision going black and Body going numb i realised that i wasnt ready for death. I was bumped out for a moment but accepted that thats how it was. And even though i decided that i didnt want to kill myself today i still hanged myself again up until the moment i felt nearly unconscious. this feeling of control and having the ability to kill myself anytime is exhilarating and gave me a ridiculous rush of joy.

nice knowing it's there if you want it!

 

[21Neberg]

I'm so jealous!! That's a point I have not been able to reach yet... god I'm so jealous of you.

 

[lost_soul83]

I'm so jealous!! That's a point I have not been able to reach yet... god I'm so jealous of you.

I second that. Wish I had that total control over life and death. Must bring such a sense of relief!

 

[Struggling]

What a feeling for you.

 

[wanttodie]

so today i got the hang of partial hanging. When i felt my vision going black and Body going numb i realised that i wasnt ready for death. I was bumped out for a moment but accepted that thats how it was. And even though i decided that i didnt want to kill myself today i still hanged myself again up until the moment i felt nearly unconscious. this feeling of control and having the ability to kill myself anytime is exhilarating and gave me a ridiculous rush of joy.

me to have tied partial hanging. When i felt my vision going black and Body going numb i realised that i was not ready for death.

 

[felix]

so today i got the hang of partial hanging. When i felt my vision going black and Body going numb i realised that i wasnt ready for death. I was bumped out for a moment but accepted that thats how it was. And even though i decided that i didnt want to kill myself today i still hanged myself again up until the moment i felt nearly unconscious. this feeling of control and having the ability to kill myself anytime is exhilarating and gave me a ridiculous rush of joy.

Can you walk us through what u did? Kind of rope? Knot? Placement? Position?

 

[aspen]

Can you walk us through what u did? Kind of rope? Knot? Placement? Position?

I was honestly surprised by how easy i got it. i was actually kind of suspicious and thought that i was doing it wrong but after reading other experiences of how it feels im pretty sure i got it right. I honestly dont have a lot of new things to add and i just followed the instructions in the threat for partial hanging. I used the bar in my closet. The first times few failed because i felt the huge pressure in my head and didnt put all the weight at once on my throat. I used a scarf and the advice on stretching you throat upwards didnt work for me. Im actually am looking down and im not sure why it works. The bar is also low enough that i can stand up on the ground at all times. I did notice a loud ringing every time doing it and im really sorry that i cant tell you sonething important to help you. im pretty sure that my explanationd are a lot worse than other peoples descriptions and theirs will be more useful.