NOISYMIND
Everyday I wake up I wanna die again.
- Sep 11, 2018
- 164
If you have decided to CTB someday, would you enjoy the rest of your time as much as you can? Or suffering yourself because you don't think you deserve any joy?
satou
not yet
- Sep 3, 2018
- 225
When I decide to do it, it will probably be at most day or two before I go through with it. Any longer and I would probably cancel. And I expect it will be at a time of mental anguish. So I would suffer, but not by choice.
I'm not going by scheduled dates anymore and I will both enjoy and suffer because I'm messed up
fuckthis
I've made up my mind.
- Sep 23, 2018
- 263
I would order a lot of drugs to my house and enjoy the time I had left.
Wantingpeace
Wizard
- Aug 16, 2018
- 672
blueming
if we can stand outside the borders of time
- Sep 21, 2018
- 253
Both, in a way. I think I'll try to enjoy myself as much as I can before I die to make living a bit more bearable. But at the same time living just makes me suffer anyway.
I'd want to enjoy... But I'd suffer
wanttodie
Enlightened
- Apr 19, 2018
- 1,804
So I would suffer
Brokenanddeadinside
Arcanist
- Aug 8, 2018
- 403
Idk probably suffer
NOISYMIND
Everyday I wake up I wanna die again.
- Sep 11, 2018
- 164
Guess I would suffer myself too...I can't "enjoy" things anymore.
I would travel the city and enjoy the sights and cheap food. Before CTB.
I tried to have my last hurrahs to "enjoy" some last human things but couldn't enjoy them, really. Suffering seems to be the default now.
lost illusions
bye
- Sep 12, 2018
- 548
Well, logically, to enjoy yourself would be the more rational answer, i guess. But that can vary depending on your level of pessimism.
BurningLights
He killed himself with his own mind
- Jul 2, 2018
- 709
I voted for enjoy, but to be honest, my ctb will probably be sparked from not enjoying myself for a while. If that makes sense.
