bridgegirl
life on the edge, I guess
- Oct 16, 2023
- 135
So, things with my best friend and I have been rocky for a long time. She's very inconsiderate and selfish, that's all I'll say about that.
Anyway, when I first told her that I wanted to ctb, she ignored me. This lasted until we got together a few weeks later to hang out. I brought it up again, because I couldn't believe that she didn't care, and she claimed she hadn't known what I was talking about (yeah okay) and then we had a really long conversation about my depression and those thoughts. I thought it went well.
But she hasn't checked in on me for two months. I haven't heard from her at all. It's pretty shitty to confide in someone and then they just kinda ignore you afterward.
And then. I woke up to discover that she posted pics of my location. The spot that calls to me so much, that haunts me. The place where I had a failed ctb attempt not long ago. She has said she "hates" that spot, and that it's creepy and she doesn't like seeing it. And yet she went out there for funsies just out of the blue and took pictures and plastered them where I would see them? Not all that long after being told "This is where I will jump"?
Fuck. You.
It was the last straw for me. I ended the friendship. Now I really am alone and friendless. I guess it's just as well, soon it won't fucking matter anyway. But it's really sent me spinning. I'm so depressed, just, why would she do this? She knows.
Anyway, when I first told her that I wanted to ctb, she ignored me. This lasted until we got together a few weeks later to hang out. I brought it up again, because I couldn't believe that she didn't care, and she claimed she hadn't known what I was talking about (yeah okay) and then we had a really long conversation about my depression and those thoughts. I thought it went well.
But she hasn't checked in on me for two months. I haven't heard from her at all. It's pretty shitty to confide in someone and then they just kinda ignore you afterward.
And then. I woke up to discover that she posted pics of my location. The spot that calls to me so much, that haunts me. The place where I had a failed ctb attempt not long ago. She has said she "hates" that spot, and that it's creepy and she doesn't like seeing it. And yet she went out there for funsies just out of the blue and took pictures and plastered them where I would see them? Not all that long after being told "This is where I will jump"?
Fuck. You.
It was the last straw for me. I ended the friendship. Now I really am alone and friendless. I guess it's just as well, soon it won't fucking matter anyway. But it's really sent me spinning. I'm so depressed, just, why would she do this? She knows.