I have looked into the symptoms here:
https://baarsinstitute.com/emotional-deprivation-disorder/
and I see myself in some descriptions. Difficulties with establishing mature communication with others, feeling like a child, being afraid that I will be put in a situation I can't handle, disintegration when there is a change (of work, apartment etc.), easily discouraged, difficulty in making decisions, feeling incapable of loving others and being loved, lack of order etc.