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The anhedonic one

The anhedonic one

Dead inside
May 20, 2023
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I spent all day, and all last night curled up in a foetal position, just wanting to die. I always want to die these days, yet recently my heart was broken.
Silly me, for thinking that things could get better in this nightmarish existence.
I am therefore going to lock my heart away in a box and put on my emotional crash helmet.
 
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leftdreaming

leftdreaming

I should’ve been a house cat
Apr 28, 2023
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Sometimes the emotional crash helmet is all we can do, which is why death is all the more tempting.

Do you think you will suffer through this or ctb? Both take a lot of strength, I'm sorry it's come down to this.
 
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The anhedonic one

The anhedonic one

Dead inside
May 20, 2023
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Sometimes the emotional crash helmet is all we can do, which is why death is all the more tempting.

Do you think you will suffer through this or ctb? Both take a lot of strength, I'm sorry it's come down to this.
I will both suffer through this and eventually ctb. I had already put all of my affairs in order and have my method decided on before meeting the person who broke my heart. I foolishly let my guard down and decided to give life one more chance. Never again.
My date for leaving is on the autumn equinox. I cannot possibly endure another winter. I use to skydive quite a lot in the past. So that will be my method. Except that I will cut away my chutes and plummet 10,000 feet to the ground. It is a guaranteed method.
 
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leftdreaming

I should’ve been a house cat
Apr 28, 2023
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I use to skydive quite a lot in the past. So that will be my method. Except that I will cut away my chutes and plummet 10,000 feet to the ground. It is a guaranteed method.
That's one hell of a way to go. I wish you luck on on your journey. Know that we are here for you until that fated day comes and then some.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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Existing in this nightmarish world truly is something so hopeless and will just lead to more suffering as time goes on, the idea of existing improving is just a cruel lie designed to torment people, I hope that you eventually find the freedom that you are searching for.
 
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The anhedonic one

The anhedonic one

Dead inside
May 20, 2023
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That's one hell of a way to go. I wish you luck on on your journey. Know that we are here for you until that fated day comes and then some.

That's one hell of a way to go. I wish you luck on on your journey. Know that we are here for you until that fated day comes and then some.
Thank you. I am here for you too.
 
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