Emo rant re good days

[Covidblows]

Does anybody go thru this...
You have several good days, even a breakthrough. You think eh I might be able to push on...,
Then your partner plays some bullshit with you, unrelated but then you have a new issue to deal with.
Have to reevaluate your life. After listening to gaslighting bullshit and no real shit...
You think here I am, back in the pit.
Is it just me?
I fear the only way I will live a normal life and not want to ctb is if I live alone.
I can't even stand myself right now from the depths I have sunk to have this argument.
I ugh can't even explain it but every time I find the urge to push on, someone always, always has to put their shit off on me and it's like a fucking anchor dragging me to the depths

 

[lymestolemylife]

Does anybody go thru this...
You have several good days, even a breakthrough. You think eh I might be able to push on...,
Then your partner plays some bullshit with you, unrelated but then you have a new issue to deal with.
Have to reevaluate your life. After listening to gaslighting bullshit and no real shit...
You think here I am, back in the pit.
Is it just me?
I fear the only way I will live a normal life and not want to ctb is if I live alone.
I can't even stand myself right now from the depths I have sunk to have this argument.
I ugh can't even explain it but every time I find the urge to push on, someone always, always has to put their shit off on me and it's like a fucking anchor dragging me to the depths

It's like that with my health. Always just goes back to shit.

 

[Covidblows]

It's like that with my health. Always just goes back to shit.

First I'm so so sorry for you :(
Believe it or not I suffer the same affliction, it's why I'm here.
Lastly thank you for posting :)

 

[lymestolemylife]

First I'm so so sorry for you :(
Believe it or not I suffer the same affliction, it's why I'm here.
Lastly thank you for posting :)

I'm sorry too. Lyme Disease is from Hell.

 

[Covidblows]

It most certainly is. I've been thru some shit but Lyme is a leveling up in a clusterfuck of feeling like you are on deaths door.
Many days I can't get thru minutes let alone hours. Then you get a glimpse that you might be coming out of it but oh no, late stage Lymeis dug in.
Your bones feel like they are crumbling, your muscles shake and spasm, the brainfog??? FORGETTABOUTIT! Friends, gone, long bored with your illness ... I could go on and on.
Much love to you bro or sis as this I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy :)