Discussion ego death

[hurb]

So this is more of a question , but at what point did you guys realise that the world doesnt revolve around you?
That being alive or dead changes nothing at all. That u are so small compared to the universe. That you are replaceable.
And how did it make you feel?

 

[Xi-Xi]

I've always known, since I was small, that I wasn't a main character in anything. That I was destined to die alone, and the world would keep moving on. And yet, I'm not too bothered by it at all.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Really only a few months ago. I had manic delusions about God's special plan for me as recently as August. I was gonna debunk all of science with young earth creationism and geocentrism. Because of shit I saw on YouTube.

 

[kitkatt]

For me personally I've always kinda felt that way but what really cemented the thought that I'm just a small part of the universe was using psychedelics. Sometimes it makes me feel small and forgettable but sometimes it's freeing to know that it doesn't really matter because I alone can't change anything significant nor can I control anything but myself. The best way I've found to cope with my place in life is to pretend like I'm just a little creature doing my best to survive in this big world and somedays I'm more successful at scavenging for scraps than others

 

[idontknowwhatiam]

On and off for the last 3 years..... This must recent bout started in August 2025 and I cannot snap out of it

 

[OzymandiAsh]

Really only a few months ago. I had manic delusions about God's special plan for me as recently as August. I was gonna debunk all of science with young earth creationism and geocentrism. Because of shit I saw on YouTube.

Haha, that sounds incredibly stupid, but you seem self aware about it now. You seem to have many regrets, admit to being a racist and a laundry list of other stuff in the past, but now you are self aware about it and reasonably smart. I don't know how much damage and harm you have caused others or how many regrets you have, but I hope you find peace eventually and congratulate yourself for changing and moving on from that bullshit lol.

 

[body_snatcher]

Life becomes much harder to live after ego death.

 

[Cauliflour]

The more I hear about all these things about space and time like how the sun's gonna explode in a couple million years time has made me paranoid that all of this pain will amount to nothing in the long run, and I'll end up like all the dead people in museums: unnamed, barely together and with nothing to show who they were personally in their life. Just another statistic for a long forgotten time. It freaks me out. Also the thought of the next solar flare being overdue freaks me out after I heard the previous one messed up all the technology and caused the telegram people to have their ears fried from their headphones getting nuked to their skin. I am very possessive over my computer and the thought of it melting with no warning, all my work on it just gone? It stresses me out to no end.

Having my body preserved in a bog or a big chunk of ice seems like a good idea for me cause then at least the future archeologists have a bit more to go based off of when they inevitably rediscover me and I can live on in memory. So in conclusion, it never died. I am still very egotistical and it's stressing me out.

 

[violetforever]

this is probably embarrassing but i still think it does, or i at least delude myself into believing that. its painfully obvious that im invisible and unimportant. nobody thinks of me as much as i do myself. its proved itself over and over again throughout my entire life. in my head i pretend people notice me, love me and think of me. i know its not true and living in my head like this isnt enough to keep me going through life.

 

[hurb]

this is probably embarrassing but i still think it does, or i at least delude myself into believing that. its painfully obvious that im invisible and unimportant. nobody thinks of me as much as i do myself. its proved itself over and over again throughout my entire life. in my head i pretend people notice me, love me and think of me. i know its not true and living in my head like this isnt enough to keep me going through life.

ye i do understand what u mean.
personally i do realise how pathetic and small Iam compared to the universe. but whenever im about to ctb something in me feels like its not right. surely tjhis is not all I am right? surely im not meant to go this way. but sadly , that's the case.
I think watching a lot of anime since i was a kid and having a lot of imagination (scenarios where im the main character etc)
affected my brain and even tho im aware those delusions arent real I think it did some damage on my brain or the way I perceive myself.
so no matter how much I tell myself i dont matter smthg deep within still believes im him. its weird

 

[violetforever]

ye i do understand what u mean.
personally i do realise how pathetic and small Iam compared to the universe.

tbh i didnt even mean the universe. i just meant my personal life/world. i know im nothing in the entire world but even in my own life and to the people i know i am too.

 

[WhatCouldHaveBeen32]

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[simplymiserable]

So this is more of a question , but at what point did you guys realise that the world doesnt revolve around you?
That being alive or dead changes nothing at all. That u are so small compared to the universe. That you are replaceable.
And how did it make you feel?

When i was a kid it made me feel more unique. Now that I'm older I feel like quirkiness/differentiation isn't all that. It's just success or failure