the paragraphs that resonate with me because I too have an illness are :
The inquest heard that Curtis had been trying to come to terms with the reality of his illness, at times expressing resolve to 'take it on the chin'.
But just two to three weeks before he passed away, he confided with his nan that 'I can't live the rest of my life like this, I'm not coming back from this, before I let this happen I'll top myself'.
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Heartbroken family fear sick 20-year-old intended to kill himself with ecstasy overdose
Grandmother Susan Enamu, who also said Curtis had been taking the drug ketamine, told his inquest: "I know in my heart he was saying goodbye"
The heartbroken family of a young man who died of an ecstasy overdose fear he may have intended to take his own life after battling an illness, an inquest heard.
Curtis Enamu died on the morning of March 7, following an unsettled night in his bedroom on Boston Avenue in Runcorn.
The 20-year-old's devastated mother told the inquest she called 999 after he admitted he had taken tablets when he began hallucinating.
At an inquest in Warrington yesterday, assistant coroner for Cheshire Heath Westerman recorded a conclusion that his death was drug-related and said he could not be sure Curtis intended to kill himself.
The inquest heard medical, police and family witness evidence and although it established that Curtis had consumed drugs, the coroner did not indicate that it had confirmed any specific motivation.
But family members cast doubt on the official ruling, revealing that Curtis had made expressed suicidal thoughts in the weeks prior to his death.
His death followed a period of ill health resulting in stage four kidney failure, with symptoms such as repeat urinary tract infections and blood in his urine having developed over the previous two years from when he was aged 18 to 19 years old.
A written statement from his grandmother Susan Enamu said Curtis had been taking the drug ketamine at times during the last two years before his death also, and had seemed 'spaced out' at times while playing on his Xbox games console.
Curtis had been due to undergo surgery in connection with his renal health problems, but the procedure had stalled due to high potassium levels.
The inquest heard that Curtis had been trying to come to terms with the reality of his illness, at times expressing resolve to 'take it on the chin'.
But just two to three weeks before he passed away, he confided with his nan that 'I can't live the rest of my life like this, I'm not coming back from this, before I let this happen I'll top myself'.
He had lost five stone in weight and his relationship with his girlfriend had also ended in the weeks prior to his death.
Toxicology tests found codeine, a 'recreational' amount of ketamine and an 'excessive' amount of ecstasy sufficient to cause potentially fatal toxicity in his system.
A pathologist said he was also suffering from an infection, and recorded a cause of death as excessive use of ecstasy 'against a background of urinary tract infections'.
His grandmother Susan Enamu, with whom Curtis had lived from the age of 11 years onwards, said he would not have taken ecstasy, adding that the day before his death he had seemed 'depressed' and had given her a box of his watches, in a gesture she said 'felt like he was saying goodbye'.
She said: "I know in my heart he was saying goodbye."
Susan also spoke of Curtis's kind affectionate nature, adding: "We were very close, there wasn't a day where he wouldn't tell me he loved me."
Curtis's mother Zoe, who was with him when he turned ill, said: "He was everything."
His uncle Jay Carr said friends of the deceased had said the 20-year-old had tried ecstasy once but 'hated it', as he cast doubt on the idea of Curtis taking the party drug recreationally.
Police who visited the scene found no suspicious circumstances and established that blue pills and a vial of blue liquid in Curtis's bedroom were ecstasy
The coroner speculated on why he might have been taking them but did not determine a specific reason.
He said Curtis had left no note and sent no text indicating he wanted to harm himself.
During his summing up he said fatalities can occur when someone 'has consumed drugs and doesn't know the total effects and what it might do to him'.
The hearing did not explore whether Curtis's illness might have been due to ketamine use, which the NHS has linked to urinary tract inflammation.
On the night of his death, Curtis had been sick in the night but family member said this was something that sometimes happened when he had been eating.
In the morning, he insisted on paying for a taxi for his nan to visit her friend, and he then stayed sat up on his bed where he had asked for a drink of water, and Susan Enamu took him two bottles before she went out.
His mum Zoe Enamu went up to his room and he asked her to sit down, and she thought it was to watch Netflix.
She told the inquest Curtis had seemed 'restless' and she had asked him 'what's up mate?' and tried to calm him down.
He began to hallucinate, 'talking to someone who wasn't there'.
She said: "I said 'who are you talking to?', he said 'grab the curtain' and when I walked over I said 'what's up?'
"He said 'I took a tablet, well tablets' and that's when I rang the ambulance'."
His mother put the phone on loudspeaker and his condition deteriorated rapidly.
Paramedics were called at 9.52am and arrived at 10.02am, by which time he had no pulse and was not breathing.
The inquest heard that Curtis had been trying to come to terms with the reality of his illness, at times expressing resolve to 'take it on the chin'.
But just two to three weeks before he passed away, he confided with his nan that 'I can't live the rest of my life like this, I'm not coming back from this, before I let this happen I'll top myself'.
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Heartbroken family fear sick 20-year-old intended to kill himself with ecstasy overdose
Grandmother Susan Enamu, who also said Curtis had been taking the drug ketamine, told his inquest: "I know in my heart he was saying goodbye"
The heartbroken family of a young man who died of an ecstasy overdose fear he may have intended to take his own life after battling an illness, an inquest heard.
Curtis Enamu died on the morning of March 7, following an unsettled night in his bedroom on Boston Avenue in Runcorn.
The 20-year-old's devastated mother told the inquest she called 999 after he admitted he had taken tablets when he began hallucinating.
At an inquest in Warrington yesterday, assistant coroner for Cheshire Heath Westerman recorded a conclusion that his death was drug-related and said he could not be sure Curtis intended to kill himself.
The inquest heard medical, police and family witness evidence and although it established that Curtis had consumed drugs, the coroner did not indicate that it had confirmed any specific motivation.
But family members cast doubt on the official ruling, revealing that Curtis had made expressed suicidal thoughts in the weeks prior to his death.
His death followed a period of ill health resulting in stage four kidney failure, with symptoms such as repeat urinary tract infections and blood in his urine having developed over the previous two years from when he was aged 18 to 19 years old.
A written statement from his grandmother Susan Enamu said Curtis had been taking the drug ketamine at times during the last two years before his death also, and had seemed 'spaced out' at times while playing on his Xbox games console.
Curtis had been due to undergo surgery in connection with his renal health problems, but the procedure had stalled due to high potassium levels.
The inquest heard that Curtis had been trying to come to terms with the reality of his illness, at times expressing resolve to 'take it on the chin'.
But just two to three weeks before he passed away, he confided with his nan that 'I can't live the rest of my life like this, I'm not coming back from this, before I let this happen I'll top myself'.
He had lost five stone in weight and his relationship with his girlfriend had also ended in the weeks prior to his death.
Toxicology tests found codeine, a 'recreational' amount of ketamine and an 'excessive' amount of ecstasy sufficient to cause potentially fatal toxicity in his system.
A pathologist said he was also suffering from an infection, and recorded a cause of death as excessive use of ecstasy 'against a background of urinary tract infections'.
His grandmother Susan Enamu, with whom Curtis had lived from the age of 11 years onwards, said he would not have taken ecstasy, adding that the day before his death he had seemed 'depressed' and had given her a box of his watches, in a gesture she said 'felt like he was saying goodbye'.
She said: "I know in my heart he was saying goodbye."
Susan also spoke of Curtis's kind affectionate nature, adding: "We were very close, there wasn't a day where he wouldn't tell me he loved me."
Curtis's mother Zoe, who was with him when he turned ill, said: "He was everything."
His uncle Jay Carr said friends of the deceased had said the 20-year-old had tried ecstasy once but 'hated it', as he cast doubt on the idea of Curtis taking the party drug recreationally.
Police who visited the scene found no suspicious circumstances and established that blue pills and a vial of blue liquid in Curtis's bedroom were ecstasy
The coroner speculated on why he might have been taking them but did not determine a specific reason.
He said Curtis had left no note and sent no text indicating he wanted to harm himself.
During his summing up he said fatalities can occur when someone 'has consumed drugs and doesn't know the total effects and what it might do to him'.
The hearing did not explore whether Curtis's illness might have been due to ketamine use, which the NHS has linked to urinary tract inflammation.
On the night of his death, Curtis had been sick in the night but family member said this was something that sometimes happened when he had been eating.
In the morning, he insisted on paying for a taxi for his nan to visit her friend, and he then stayed sat up on his bed where he had asked for a drink of water, and Susan Enamu took him two bottles before she went out.
His mum Zoe Enamu went up to his room and he asked her to sit down, and she thought it was to watch Netflix.
She told the inquest Curtis had seemed 'restless' and she had asked him 'what's up mate?' and tried to calm him down.
He began to hallucinate, 'talking to someone who wasn't there'.
She said: "I said 'who are you talking to?', he said 'grab the curtain' and when I walked over I said 'what's up?'
"He said 'I took a tablet, well tablets' and that's when I rang the ambulance'."
His mother put the phone on loudspeaker and his condition deteriorated rapidly.
Paramedics were called at 9.52am and arrived at 10.02am, by which time he had no pulse and was not breathing.
