Each day feels like the last.

[Sailfisher]

Every day feels like the last one, like I got too far off track. I live for the time of day when I can go to bed and feel nothing.

Can antidepressants fix this?

 

[Fadingfast]

I'm on antidepressants and it has increaed my suicidal ideation. I'm 2 weeks on them today. Nothing has improved. Not trying to influence you on way or the other. Apparently does good for some people. Just beware.

 

[JoeFailure]

I'm on antidepressants and it has increaed my suicidal ideation. I'm 2 weeks on them today. Nothing has improved. Not trying to influence you on way or the other. Apparently does good for some people. Just beware.

Ugh, that's why I haven't taken them. Some days it's so bad I can't imagine how I could handle it being worse. Also other side effects like nausea or fatigue like I've heard about. I'm about to start working a second job, volunteer, play sports as much as I can, and try to come up with some kind of career goal, I can't take on fatigue. My strategy is to just completely fill my days up and hope time goes faster. I don't know if it's logical or not.

 

[Allpainnogain]

Ugh, that's why I haven't taken them. Some days it's so bad I can't imagine how I could handle it being worse. Also other side effects like nausea or fatigue like I've heard about. I'm about to start working a second job, volunteer, play sports as much as I can, and try to come up with some kind of career goal, I can't take on fatigue. My strategy is to just completely fill my days up and hope time goes faster. I don't know if it's logical or not.

May I ask why you're doing all these things and still wanting to ctb?

 

[JoeFailure]

May I ask why you're doing all these things and still wanting to ctb?

I don't know. I'm trying to see if it works and buys time and something changes. For the most part I don't think my situation is salvageable but every once in a week or two there's a day with a glimmer of hope like today. It's usually unfortunately followed by a week or two of pure emotional suffering so I'm not looking forward to that if the cycle continues. I also basically slept almost all weekend and the last 2 days because the depression was so paralyzing, so I don't even know if this will all work with filling my schedule.

 

[Allpainnogain]

I don't know. I'm trying to see if it works and buys time and something changes. For the most part I don't think my situation is salvageable but every once in a week or two there's a day with a glimmer of hope like today. It's usually unfortunately followed by a week or two of pure emotional suffering so I'm not looking forward to that if the cycle continues. I also basically slept almost all weekend and the last 2 days because the depression was so paralyzing, so I don't even know if this will all work with filling my schedule.

Well if you have the drive and energy to do all these things and you enjoy them, go for it!

 

[JoeFailure]

Well if you have the drive and energy to do all these things and you enjoy them, go for it!

I used to really enjoy playing sports and volunteering and cooking...but now most of the time I don't. I hate that I've lost the light I once had. It only flickers now once in a great while.