goodoldnoname923
Wanting to find peace
- Mar 28, 2024
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How do you guys feel about dying in board daylight…like commiting suicide during the day i don't mean like doing it in a public setting thats a story for another day
I mean killing yourself during sunshine,i guess it's always felt wrong to me just seems more befitting to die under the moonlight,i've always had a preference for dying at night…just dying at day feels wrong yet i often feel the most suicidal when i wake up…all these thoughts and feelings rushing through my mind pain,guilt suffering regret etc etc yet all i do is think i wish i had the night before and now i have to wait all day to try again,why not just do it right there and then?
Again part of it being down to idealisation but then there is a practical side of it as well I'm at more risk of being found were doing so at night gartines me least a decent amount of hours to were i could be potentially found granted i could accomplish simliar in the evening i suppose yet all the same it comes back to the daylight thing plus my method relying on my body's psychical frigate maybe i should just go when i feel emotionally ready idk
Like my parents have a chance of coming around at 2 time frames and thats around 10-11ish or around the evening 4-6 both of which are rare especially the ladder but its still possible and thats what concerns me if it was more regular it would actually be easier to prodict but its not
What do you all think? Not just about me personally but generally is my need or wamt to die at night an understandable one or just arbitrary
I mean killing yourself during sunshine,i guess it's always felt wrong to me just seems more befitting to die under the moonlight,i've always had a preference for dying at night…just dying at day feels wrong yet i often feel the most suicidal when i wake up…all these thoughts and feelings rushing through my mind pain,guilt suffering regret etc etc yet all i do is think i wish i had the night before and now i have to wait all day to try again,why not just do it right there and then?
Again part of it being down to idealisation but then there is a practical side of it as well I'm at more risk of being found were doing so at night gartines me least a decent amount of hours to were i could be potentially found granted i could accomplish simliar in the evening i suppose yet all the same it comes back to the daylight thing plus my method relying on my body's psychical frigate maybe i should just go when i feel emotionally ready idk
Like my parents have a chance of coming around at 2 time frames and thats around 10-11ish or around the evening 4-6 both of which are rare especially the ladder but its still possible and thats what concerns me if it was more regular it would actually be easier to prodict but its not
What do you all think? Not just about me personally but generally is my need or wamt to die at night an understandable one or just arbitrary
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