Ferdinand
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- Nov 27, 2018
- 6
Does anyone else have wishes of a death that comes from a scenario other than suicide? One which would portray you as a victim or a hero, to lessen the pain and guilt in the ones that do indeed care about us?
I've imagined running out in front of a bus to push a child to safety, dying instantly from the impact. Hailed as a hero that my family and the child's family, while grieving, would be proud of, and sacrificing my life so that another with more potential may take my spot.
I've imagined getting an advanced cancer, where chemo would only extend life a month or two and not in a good way. Instead, getting 3 months of relatively quality life to celebrate with friends, take trips, talk that crush from last year into a mercy-f***, then spend a month blacked out on morphine. No one is going to bitch about work or money, everyone would be trying to make you last few months the best they could be.
Now I know some of us have blessings others do not, which may influence their feelings, but what would you do with that 3 month window? Play with the grandkids? Travel the world? Make peace with rivals? Volunteer for (ironically) suicide/one-way space missions?
I've imagined running out in front of a bus to push a child to safety, dying instantly from the impact. Hailed as a hero that my family and the child's family, while grieving, would be proud of, and sacrificing my life so that another with more potential may take my spot.
I've imagined getting an advanced cancer, where chemo would only extend life a month or two and not in a good way. Instead, getting 3 months of relatively quality life to celebrate with friends, take trips, talk that crush from last year into a mercy-f***, then spend a month blacked out on morphine. No one is going to bitch about work or money, everyone would be trying to make you last few months the best they could be.
Now I know some of us have blessings others do not, which may influence their feelings, but what would you do with that 3 month window? Play with the grandkids? Travel the world? Make peace with rivals? Volunteer for (ironically) suicide/one-way space missions?