Venting Dying alone

[Underdepth]

Dying from suicide is difficult because you're having to die alone. It is not like getting a deadly disease like cancer where people you love will be surrounding you and comforting you. I do not have anyone I love, but I wish I did. I wish I had someone who could lay or sit beside me as I drift to sleep, someone who could talk to me while easing my anxiety so my last moments isn't thinking about death itself. I want to die without the conflicting thoughts of death, I want to focus on a happy scenario with someone and feel the presence of their company so I knew I was loved and cared for. I want to die with a smile on my face and few tears. Not sad and in anguish. I think I deserve that.

 

[Flippy]

I think everyone deserves to have a pleasant death with their loved ones to help ease their anxiety. It's sad that ctb is rarely something that can permit that. It's like the Jackson Browne song where he sings "there's one dance you will do alone." This is one of the things that is holding me back from ctb because I will always want more time with those special to me. That's why I have no firm plans right now, but it does feel inevitable.

 

[S1mpleme]

Dying from suicide is difficult because you're having to die alone. It is not like getting a deadly disease like cancer where people you love will be surrounding you and comforting you. I do not have anyone I love, but I wish I did. I wish I had someone who could lay or sit beside me as I drift to sleep, someone who could talk to me while easing my anxiety so my last moments isn't thinking about death itself. I want to die without the conflicting thoughts of death, I want to focus on a happy scenario with someone and feel the presence of their company so I knew I was loved and cared for. I want to die with a smile on my face and few tears. Not sad and in anguish. I think I deserve that.

Living alone is even worse than dying alone.

 

[SugarbushMtn]

Once again, a minor concern given the pain of continuing to be alive. IMO.

 

[RedPanda]

Dying from suicide is difficult because you're having to die alone. It is not like getting a deadly disease like cancer where people you love will be surrounding you and comforting you. I do not have anyone I love, but I wish I did. I wish I had someone who could lay or sit beside me as I drift to sleep, someone who could talk to me while easing my anxiety so my last moments isn't thinking about death itself. I want to die without the conflicting thoughts of death, I want to focus on a happy scenario with someone and feel the presence of their company so I knew I was loved and cared for. I want to die with a smile on my face and few tears. Not sad and in anguish. I think I deserve that.

I think in the end we all die alone, we all journey fourth into the unknown on our own BUT i do understand what you're trying to say as well. Being alone can really suck sometimes. Unless you're visiting Dignitas and have people at your side during assisted suicide then yes, choosing to commit suicide is a very lonely decision to make.

 

[heheb27595]

I born alone, I will die alone.

 

[Soulstax]

Well when I actually die those concerns won't matter anymore, so no reason to worry about it while living..

 

[mesohappy]

Living alone is even worse than dying alone.

I just keep thinking,if I die this will all be over.No more loneliness,no more thoughts of past relationships,no more thoughts about future relationships..Living alone is emptiness and struggling after nothing but vanity and pride.But in my experience living with someone else ,is even worse.It always seems one thing in the beginning,then changes into some ugly shit.Im probably a messed up person,but I think I prefer dying alone.

 

[S1mpleme]

I just keep thinking,if I die this will all be over.No more loneliness,no more thoughts of past relationships,no more thoughts about future relationships..Living alone is emptiness and struggling after nothing but vanity and pride.But in my experience living with someone else ,is even worse.It always seems one thing in the beginning,then changes into some ugly shit.Im probably a messed up person,but I think I prefer dying alone.

No matter what I prefer, I will die alone most likely, I can't make anyone to be with me.

 

[Aonewayticketplease]

Different perspective to what I have. I have seen a few relatives die while being "comforted" by family and other caring parties.

In my observation it looked more like badgering the dying than being useful.......How are you feeling?..........Uncle Morton Throckmorton is waiting for you........It's OK to let go!

Each to their own I suppose but IMHO when dying you either have an audience of witnesses, their eyes filled with morbid curiosity or you go without them.

 

[TowerUpright]

Given the opportunity, I would be alone.

Seriously, it's like the stereotype of a very sick animal, leaving the nest to die. I feel no one needs to see that. I will be alone, sure. I'll also won't care after I die.