
hybridtheory
kels
- Jun 22, 2019
- 487
i keep telling myself i´m not currently suicidal and i keep ignoring the
intrusive thoughts. i tell everyone around me that i´m better now and i tell
myself that as well, but last night i went out and got drunk and the whole time
i was talking about suicide out loud to everyone around me. we were up on a parking garage
and i kept asking them if they thought it was high enough to drop from.
so the point of this thread is to ask whether being drunk and having those suicidal tendencies
were my true self and my actual thoughts or was it me just being drunk and stupid.
like how they say "a drunk mind speaks a sober heart" ... maybe i really am currently suicidal
and i just keep ignoring how i feel by covering it up with something else as a distraction.
intrusive thoughts. i tell everyone around me that i´m better now and i tell
myself that as well, but last night i went out and got drunk and the whole time
i was talking about suicide out loud to everyone around me. we were up on a parking garage
and i kept asking them if they thought it was high enough to drop from.
so the point of this thread is to ask whether being drunk and having those suicidal tendencies
were my true self and my actual thoughts or was it me just being drunk and stupid.
like how they say "a drunk mind speaks a sober heart" ... maybe i really am currently suicidal
and i just keep ignoring how i feel by covering it up with something else as a distraction.