RosebyAnyName
Staring at the ceiling for 6 hours
- Nov 9, 2023
- 183
When I was using psychedelics infrequently, I felt like I was finally able to heal and forgive myself. I felt like I actually had the energy to pursue the things that I really wanted and I wasn't afraid to be myself anymore. I wanted to try and stop using drugs entirely though, because I didn't want to rely on a substance. Well, cut to almost a year later of sobriety and I feel like I'm right back at square one. I've tried to keep those positive feelings going but it never works, drugs seem to be the only thing that actually keeps me consistently happy. I really didn't want to rely on drugs, and I still plan on being sober for the time being because I don't want to risk getting side effects, but I'm at a loss now. Are drugs really the only thing that makes me happy and there's nothing else really left for me in this world? I wish it wasn't this way.