Theon
Experienced
- Jun 20, 2019
- 241
I kind of wish I had that excuse. Instead I'm left with sheer, unintoxicated stupidity.
not_a_robot
"i hope the leaving is joyful, & never to return"
- May 30, 2019
- 2,121
No, other people have damaged my life due to drugs and alcohol.
I have spent my adult life "California sober", a daily 1 gram of weed with rare infusions of drugs and alcohol.
I am cognitively superior by most tests that exist yet because I love weed I get treated by doctors as though I'm "drug crazed" if I display even the slightest emotional inflection. The inability to obtain competent medical care has ruined me.
I have spent my adult life "California sober", a daily 1 gram of weed with rare infusions of drugs and alcohol.
I am cognitively superior by most tests that exist yet because I love weed I get treated by doctors as though I'm "drug crazed" if I display even the slightest emotional inflection. The inability to obtain competent medical care has ruined me.
Financially yea, but I've stopped the drinking and drugging minus taking a few extra Xanax than needed.
Theon
Experienced
- Jun 20, 2019
- 241
I was too stupid to stop doing drugs. Eleven years of abusing meth and Xanax have left me unable to feel any pleasure and with permanent anxiety.
devil
★
- Jun 22, 2019
- 438
Yes. Not so much with the alcohol but cocaine has destroyed my life. I've spent so much money on it, but it's the one thing that makes me feel somewhat normal. Even though it creates more problems in my life, I guess I don't really care anymore.
They put you in an impossible circle the bastards. Can't win and everything you do or say "proves" them right one way or another. Every possible behavior and response can be used against you.
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Rocksandsand
Specialist
- May 26, 2019
- 396
I used and abused codeine for years and years before legislators changed it to prescription only. When it changed, I ended up using heroin. I only used heroin for about two weeks before I sought opiate replacement therapy for the whole addiction (first suboxone, then subutex, then methadone). None of them made me feel like heroin did - all of them gave me a nausea that rendered me unable to leave the house because whenever I'd move, I'd vomit. Heroin made that constant suicidal ideation that nags in the background just fade away.
So now I just smoke weed, and take a tiny bit of codeine each day that I get prescribed. The heroin was short-lived, but it's fucked me. I think about heroin every day. It's the only time I have ever felt completely at ease in an existential sense.
So now I just smoke weed, and take a tiny bit of codeine each day that I get prescribed. The heroin was short-lived, but it's fucked me. I think about heroin every day. It's the only time I have ever felt completely at ease in an existential sense.
Alchohol, ciggies and coffee has played a big part in ruining my health. I feel damaged by psyc drugs too. Mainly SSRI's.
Theon
Experienced
- Jun 20, 2019
- 241
Yeah when I went to rehab earlier in the year to get off Xanax...they replaced it with like a whole cocktail of pills. The only one that helped, at least with sleep, was Seroquel, an antipsychotic. And it's just fucked me up. Like I'm dead emotionally. Don't feel happy, sad, nothing. And the anxiety, the main thing I've been grappling with, has just gotten worse.
