snowee
Member
- Jan 17, 2026
- 7
I knew coke was addictive af but holy shit. I was struggling mentally before I tried it and I know it's making me feel even worse yet I can't stop. It's 4am and I just got more I literally cannot stop myself. I wish it wasn't so easy to get where i live. It doesn't help that i'm so impulsive and it only takes 10 minutes to be delivered to me. I wish someone would lock me up and delete all of my numbers. I really tried to get help. I told my doctor and was signed off work. The support wasn't enough. I ended up in hospital a few days ago and it made me realise that there's nothing anyone can do. I was left on a chair for hours crying and the nurses kept walking past me and staring at me. Not a single person asked if i was okay. No one gives a fuck. Rehab is too expensive and i'm really afraid of ruining my life even further. Idk what to do.
I beg anyone that struggles with depression and social anxiety not to try it. It helps short term but it's gotten to the point where I need it just to take care of myself. Without it i'm completely out of energy to get out of bed or socialise. I'm very much stuck in a loop.
I've done so much research and it seems cocaine addiction and undiagnosed ADHD go hand in hand. The problem is i can't get a diagnosis or therapy until i'm sober. I need help now I can't wait that long. I doubt i'll get sober and i can't bare living like this anymore. I've given up on professional help and I missed my doctor appointment on Friday. I'm guessing they will want to see me tomorrow and i'm gonna tell them I don't want their help anymore. I'm gonna be honest with them. This will be my final scream for help. I have a feeling they won't give a shit like always.
I just did my last line and I'm gonna be awake for fucking ages now…
Don't do drugz my lovelies :')
I beg anyone that struggles with depression and social anxiety not to try it. It helps short term but it's gotten to the point where I need it just to take care of myself. Without it i'm completely out of energy to get out of bed or socialise. I'm very much stuck in a loop.
I've done so much research and it seems cocaine addiction and undiagnosed ADHD go hand in hand. The problem is i can't get a diagnosis or therapy until i'm sober. I need help now I can't wait that long. I doubt i'll get sober and i can't bare living like this anymore. I've given up on professional help and I missed my doctor appointment on Friday. I'm guessing they will want to see me tomorrow and i'm gonna tell them I don't want their help anymore. I'm gonna be honest with them. This will be my final scream for help. I have a feeling they won't give a shit like always.
I just did my last line and I'm gonna be awake for fucking ages now…
Don't do drugz my lovelies :')
