Drinking is honestly the only thing that helps anymore.

[SHThrowAway213]

It helps with everything and anything.
It helps with my paranoia.
It helps me get to sleep.
It definitely helps with my suicidal urges.
But I cant drink as often as I want to as my husband is home all the time atm.
He doesn't let me drink.
He knows that I use it to cope with my mental health problems, and he says its unhealthy and could lead to health problems down the line.
I already have health problems from it.
Chronic gastritis and neuropathy.
I honestly wish I could drink more.
But we cant even afford it as he lost his job.
I don't care if I'm an alcoholic and drink myself to death, it's the only effective coping mechanism.
I'd rather be an alcoholic then dead.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

lol I am drinking right now only at my 3rd beer I use it as a sedative to ease my anger and also forget my suicidal thoughts or at least not care about them and as you mentioned helps me go to sleep.

Btw it´s been 3 days since I last got drunk the longest I´ve gone in the last couple months.

 

[overandout]

It helps with everything and anything.
It helps with my paranoia.
It helps me get to sleep.
It definitely helps with my suicidal urges.
But I cant drink as often as I want to as my husband is home all the time atm.
He doesn't let me drink.
He knows that I use it to cope with my mental health problems, and he says its unhealthy and could lead to health problems down the line.
I already have health problems from it.
Chronic gastritis and neuropathy.
I honestly wish I could drink more.
But we cant even afford it as he lost his job.
I don't care if I'm an alcoholic and drink myself to death, it's the only effective coping mechanism.
I'd rather be an alcoholic then dead.

I suffer with Gastritis too, do you belch after drinking. Any nausea? What do you drink. I don't know what's the best alcoholic drink, be interested to know what your favourite is despite the Gastritis. I really want to escape with alcohol too

 

[SHThrowAway213]

I suffer with Gastritis too, do you belch after drinking. Any nausea? What do you drink. I don't know what's the best alcoholic drink, be interested to know what your favourite is despite the Gastritis. I really want to escape with alcohol too

Can burp quite a bit. But of nausea and throwing up, lots of acid reflux.
I don't get these when I don't drink
Vodka is the best for me.
Cheap and high ac.

 

[overandout]

Can burp quite a bit. But of nausea and throwing up, lots of acid reflux.
I don't get these when I don't drink
Vodka is the best for me.
Cheap and high ac.

Thanks, will give it a go, Straight vodka or do you mix it? Find fizzy drinks a struggle

 

[LMLN]

I can empathize with you. I drink to deal with the emotional pain I have. I have gotten off vodka recently, trying to use hard seltzer instead to wean off lol.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I suffer from gastric/acid reflux plus allergic to alcohol not that anyones cares...

 

[Werewolf]

Indeed alcohol is the only thing that makes the constant noise in my head go away, only momentarily though. I don't get wasted every night but have enough to endure existing, go to sleep and still being able to drive and work in the morning. Weekends though I usually go all in.

Been doing this for like 8-10 years now, no physical complications, was sober for one year and I only felt worse mentally. I prefer beer and vodka, nothing sweet that messes up your stomach.

Have tried everything ssri, snri, nassa, analogs etc. only thing that works really is benzo but I have such gaba cross tolerance i needed huge doses so got my prescriptions pulled.

Opiates is of course a whole different ballgame but I don't don't dare go down that route.

 

[Varstraben]

I understand, i'm drunk at the moment, and like every evening, because it help me to not think. If I can think when I go to bed, I don't sleep at all, so I have to drink a lot of alcohol before going to sleep because any drugs given by my psychotherapist not help at all. When i'm drunk, it's the only time that I don't have these flash and voices in my head that told me to quit now and say me that i'm a nature's mistake or a monster.

I do it every day since maybe 10 years now, so I raise my glass to all the alcoholics who drinking like me at the moment !

 

[MaybeSoon]

Yes, agree, it's the only thing except losing myself in a good book that numbs my mind.

 

[SHThrowAway213]

Thanks, will give it a go, Straight vodka or do you mix it? Find fizzy drinks a struggle

I mix it, not a lot though.
The only thing I can drink straight is sambuca and schnapps

 

[GravityUtilizer]

Recovering alcoholic here. I've gotta deal with all this crap sober, though a potential relapse is sort of like a buffer between me and ctb. Prob would've just necked SN if it was there and I was drinking. Surprised that's not more of an issue round here, tho I did see one goodbye thread like that.

 

[june]

Yes, agree, it's the only thing except losing myself in a good book that numbs my mind.

I loved reading that. That's how I coped as a child, it reminded me of simpler times.

Recovering alcoholic here. I've gotta deal with all this crap sober, though a potential relapse is sort of like a buffer between me and ctb. Prob would've just necked SN if it was there and I was drinking. Surprised that's not more of an issue round here, tho I did see one goodbye thread like that.

How long since your last drink? You feel like drinking makes you suicidal so you don't drink? That's pretty powerful idea coupling

 

[SHThrowAway213]

I'm not even supposed to drink on my medications.

 

[Dead beat dad]

It helps with everything and anything.
It helps with my paranoia.
It helps me get to sleep.
It definitely helps with my suicidal urges.
But I cant drink as often as I want to as my husband is home all the time atm.
He doesn't let me drink.
He knows that I use it to cope with my mental health problems, and he says its unhealthy and could lead to health problems down the line.
I already have health problems from it.
Chronic gastritis and neuropathy.
I honestly wish I could drink more.
But we cant even afford it as he lost his job.
I don't care if I'm an alcoholic and drink myself to death, it's the only effective coping mechanism.
I'd rather be an alcoholic then dead.

I feel this friend. It sounds like you have a world of demons, I sincerely wish you peace.

DBD

 

[BridgeJumper]

I feel exactly the same about it...
I used to be an alcoholic / addict in the past but decided to change my life and went off the stuff.
But now I got this debilitating ear condition that makes me get vertigo so bad I cant move my head without throwing up, and hypersensitivity to sound so severe that everything sounds like nails on chalkboard level ear rape!
And I went right back to drinking because it makes me numb and when Im numb at least theres a few hours where I dont care Im spinning?
The last week or so Im drunk almost everyday, and already drunk myself unconscious 3 times. Ive seen a doctor about my health problem and basically paid 50 bucks to be told its in my head and I should accept it in the most polite way possible. I give up...