drink has lessened my fear

[Iwantoutrightnow]

I've been drinking. Lack of food for long time has made it more effective. Still not confident in my method but drink has lessened my fear so I think I'm going to go for it. There's no way forward for me in life so might as well take my chances with death.

 

[faust]

This is your right to choose. If you think you are ready, I wish you a good luck and a safe journey. If you don't, then there is no need to rush. Take care!

 

[SunInTheShade9]

This is your right to choose. If you think you are ready, I wish you a good luck and a safe journey. If you don't, then there is no need to rush. Take care!

I second this. Much love to you either way. Xx

 

[Iwantoutrightnow]

I desperately want to just fall asleep and never wake up - not going to happen
I would like to walk into the sea and just be gone - not going to happen
I don't want the sun to rise on another day - the sun will rise but I don't have to be alive. I have a setup, it's not great but it should work. It's unlikely to be painless or peaceful, my knot technique is rubbish but the important part is that it works.

It still feels like it will be an act of desperation but I have researched it over and over. I want out, not this way but I want out

I have reached 'wise' status - I've always wanted to be wise, I can die happy

Thanks everyone

 

[Redpanda18]

I've been drinking a lot in hope it will give me the courage. It hasn't yet.

 

[Pan]

I've been drinking a lot in hope it will give me the courage. It hasn't yet.

It will, trust me. STRENGTH THROUGH JOY