Venting Dreading this time of the year

[SoulSearchingMan65]

Anyone else dread this time of the year with Halloween coming up and the holidays not too far off? Then before you know it, it is a new year and you're still stuck in this shit show. I think my least favorite of all of them is Halloween and the whole trick or treating thing. I've done the handing out candy thing for the past few years and I've really come to hate it. But try telling that to my dad, who seems ok with all of it.

The others aren't too bad, but I feel that it puts an undue pressure on you to be happy and look like you're in the spirit. I hate having to put on a facade and act like I'm loving every minute of it. It feels so phony. I can't wait to ctb and be done with all of this.

 

[Sick of it all]

I feel the same way for sure.

 

[Hollowillow]

I loathe christmass. Fake joy commercialism garbage. They try to sell decorations before halloween! Sick demented fucks. I'd like to dress as a scarecrow and hang on your dad's tree

 

[Lifeaballache]

I'm spending Christmas in Malta i can't fucking wait! Won't be in the cold UK alone lmao.

 

[Hollowillow]

I'm spending Christmas in Malta i can't fucking wait! Won't be in the cold UK alone lmao.

I like cold it's the seizure inducing blinking xmass lights that I hate.

What is Malta? I want japan!

 

[Judy Garland]

Fall and Winter are my favorite seasons. I love to be nice and cozy inside while the wind howls outside. I don't hate Christmas because I feel the true meaning of Christmas, and who I am. This year, I am planning on dying before Christmas comes. I know in the past I have moved my date further and further into the future, but I don't want to see New Years. I really don't want to be around then. The only thing I have to live for are video games. Yeah, it's pitiful isn't it? That a few games that are coming out triggers my SI and I'm forced to stay? I just found out Dead Space (pretty much a remake) is coming out January 22. And I really don't want to be here for it's release. I hope I feel ready to go from this earth before then. And I know, that nothing on this earth compares to that of Heaven, so why am I staying? Why can't I just die. If it were a simple switch, I'd flip it right now. But I have to use poison, and I have to worry about that process. And I even worry that I'll take the poison and I'll wake up the next day and fail. I worry about so much with it, and that forces me to keep postponing the date too.
But no, Fall and Winter don't make me sad. Spring and Summer do. In the Summer, I have to watch everyone go by my home hand in hand, happy with their lives. I have to deal with the humidity and the heat. So, I'm glad that Fall is finally here.

 

[lessonlearned]

Fall and Winter are my favorite seasons. I love to be nice and cozy inside while the wind howls outside. I don't hate Christmas because I feel the true meaning of Christmas, and who I am. This year, I am planning on dying before Christmas comes. I know in the past I have moved my date further and further into the future, but I don't want to see New Years. I really don't want to be around then. The only thing I have to live for are video games. Yeah, it's pitiful isn't it? That a few games that are coming out triggers my SI and I'm forced to stay? I just found out Dead Space (pretty much a remake) is coming out January 22. And I really don't want to be here for it's release. I hope I feel ready to go from this earth before then. And I know, that nothing on this earth compares to that of Heaven, so why am I staying? Why can't I just die. If it were a simple switch, I'd flip it right now. But I have to use poison, and I have to worry about that process. And I even worry that I'll take the poison and I'll wake up the next day and fail. I worry about so much with it, and that forces me to keep postponing the date too.
But no, Fall and Winter don't make me sad. Spring and Summer do. In the Summer, I have to watch everyone go by my home hand in hand, happy with their lives. I have to deal with the humidity and the heat. So, I'm glad that Fall is finally here.

me too. i prefer fall and winter for similar reasons. i always know life will be more dreadful in the spring and summer for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

For me all of those seasonal holidays are just another day. There is nothing worth celebrating in this life, and any kind of forced optimism associated with them just makes me want to ctb more. Christmas is so commercialised anyway.
I do find my birthday and new year to be depressing though, as my birthday was the day in which the suffering started and more than anything I wish that I never existed so of course I don't like it. The thought of a new year does fill me with dread and it's always depressing knowing that I've managed to exist for another year. Probably the worst time of year for me is the summer as the hot weather makes me unable to sleep and just makes me want to ctb even more.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Fall and Winter are my favorite seasons. I love to be nice and cozy inside while the wind howls outside. I don't hate Christmas because I feel the true meaning of Christmas, and who I am. This year, I am planning on dying before Christmas comes. I know in the past I have moved my date further and further into the future, but I don't want to see New Years. I really don't want to be around then. The only thing I have to live for are video games. Yeah, it's pitiful isn't it? That a few games that are coming out triggers my SI and I'm forced to stay? I just found out Dead Space (pretty much a remake) is coming out January 22. And I really don't want to be here for it's release. I hope I feel ready to go from this earth before then. And I know, that nothing on this earth compares to that of Heaven, so why am I staying? Why can't I just die. If it were a simple switch, I'd flip it right now. But I have to use poison, and I have to worry about that process. And I even worry that I'll take the poison and I'll wake up the next day and fail. I worry about so much with it, and that forces me to keep postponing the date too.
But no, Fall and Winter don't make me sad. Spring and Summer do. In the Summer, I have to watch everyone go by my home hand in hand, happy with their lives. I have to deal with the humidity and the heat. So, I'm glad that Fall is finally here.

It's okay; video games are important in that way for many people.

 

[theboy]

I just think: Oh, hell, it's October and I'm still alive!

 

[absurd_to_the_end]

Yes, I hate the holiday season, I don't celebrate holidays anymore as there's no one to celebrate with. And I can't ignore it, as the reminders are everywhere.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

I spent the last two Christmas alone

 

[Spiritual survivor]

Yea I'm just still living my shitty life and I've never achieved a life worth living on top of all this, I'm getting poorer and older, body starting to fall apart. I regret not going out sooner before the Covid plandemic.

 

[makethepainstop]

Yea I'm just still living my shitty life and I've never achieved a life worth living on top of all this, I'm getting poorer and older, body starting to fall apart. I regret not going out sooner before the Covid plandemic.

You sound just like I am. Big five minute hug for you, you deserve one. Much love to you!

 

[outrider567]

Anyone else dread this time of the year with Halloween coming up and the holidays not too far off? Then before you know it, it is a new year and you're still stuck in this shit show. I think my least favorite of all of them is Halloween and the whole trick or treating thing. I've done the handing out candy thing for the past few years and I've really come to hate it. But try telling that to my dad, who seems ok with all of it.

The others aren't too bad, but I feel that it puts an undue pressure on you to be happy and look like you're in the spirit. I hate having to put on a facade and act like I'm loving every minute of it. It feels so phony. I can't wait to ctb and be done with all of this.

Yep, will be my first holidays in 35 years without her, going to be bad, and the days will soon get shorter and darker earlier starting the 6th next month with DST--but right now is painful enough--Today we'd be going to Banner Elk North Carolina,renting this big house on top of a mountain with wood burning fireplace,seeing the FallColors but that's all gone now