Dreading sleep

[anklebiter]

Currently 6 am for me and have been sitting here overthinking for hours now. I'm tired and got work at 3 pm but ik if I sleep ill have to wake up and repeat this endless cycle of waking up, work all day, then getting home to just overthink and feel miserable all over again. Why does life have to be so terrible I wish I could just shut my thoughts off

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing here certainly is so dreadful, and it's true that there's no real relief from suffering in this world, I get that it's tiring feeling trapped here. I could never see a point to existing, we are just waiting around to die anyway and it's true that being conscious is so torturous.

 

[anklebiter]

Existing here certainly is so dreadful, and it's true that there's no real relief from suffering in this world, I get that it's tiring feeling trapped here. I could never see a point to existing, we are just waiting around to die anyway and it's true that being conscious is so torturous.

It certainly is... just being awake is exhausting

 

[The anhedonic one]

We are like hamsters on a wheel, going round and round in a pointless cycle of futility.
Lots of effort, yet getting nowhere.
Tortured by our sadistic brains relentlessly.
Victims of a sick, twisted wage-slave society.
This evil society drains our emotional resources and kills us inside.
So sorry you are going through this.

 

[Fktw0rld]

Its definitely a brutal pattern. I remember when I used to sleep to escape everything. Now I suffer from extreme, super lucid PTSD dreams, constant night terrors, false awakenings and sleep paralysis every night. There's no escape.

 

[anklebiter]

Its definitely a brutal pattern. I remember when I used to sleep to escape everything. Now I suffer from extreme, super lucid PTSD dreams, constant night terrors, false awakenings and sleep paralysis every night.

That's horrible ive struggled with night terrors and sleep paralysis pretty much my whole life as well though I only usually have sleep paralysis happen to me a couple times a month so it's not to bad I have a really hard time not waking up every hour tho

We are like hamsters on a wheel, going round and round in a pointless cycle of futility.
Lots of effort, yet getting nowhere.
Tortured by our sadistic brains relentlessly.
Victims of a sick, twisted wage-slave society.
This evil society drains our emotional resources and kills us inside.
So sorry you are going through this.

Well said , it's horrible how so many people put in all the effort they can into getting better yet its almost impossible in this society/world