Don’t want to see 2025

[butimbleeding]

Anybody else trying to catch the bus before the New Year?

Due to the Canada postal strike it doesn't look like I'll be able to receive SN anytime soon, so I think I've come to the conclusion that hanging will be my method. Not as peaceful it seems, but a lot cheaper. And simpler, I'm too tired from life to source all the meds for SN protocol.

I just hope we get some snow here in December. I would like to wander into the woods at night during a fresh snowfall to find a tree to commit the act. Even though hanging might be very painful, at least the scene would be kind of serene and peaceful. I used to write music, maybe I could do one final song about it to leave the world with something before I go.

Thanks for reading my thoughts. It feels like I'm bleeding out every day until there's nothing left of me.

If anyone else is struggling with nervousness/anxiety/SI when it comes to hanging, I'd be glad to chat in the PMs. I vent on the forum every now and then but it might be nice to talk to someone going through the same mental battles. Wishing you all a nice evening.

 

[TheHolySword]

I don't want to see the new year honestly but due to personal reasons I want to wait until at least May of next year. It will at least give me time to prepare for the SN method and let me write out all my letters and maybe see some things before I ctb. I hope you're able to see the snow and I hope that it's beautiful. I'm wishing you the best, I hope you find what you're looking for and I hope that it's peaceful.

 

[pariah80]

Anybody else trying to catch the bus before the New Year?

Due to the Canada postal strike it doesn't look like I'll be able to receive SN anytime soon, so I think I've come to the conclusion that hanging will be my method. Not as peaceful it seems, but a lot cheaper. And simpler, I'm too tired from life to source all the meds for SN protocol.

I just hope we get some snow here in December. I would like to wander into the woods at night during a fresh snowfall to find a tree to commit the act. Even though hanging might be very painful, at least the scene would be kind of serene and peaceful. I used to write music, maybe I could do one final song about it to leave the world with something before I go.

Thanks for reading my thoughts. It feels like I'm bleeding out every day until there's nothing left of me.

If anyone else is struggling with nervousness/anxiety/SI when it comes to hanging, I'd be glad to chat in the PMs. I vent on the forum every now and then but it might be nice to talk to someone going through the same mental battles. Wishing you all a nice evening.

I share this sentiment. I live in the U.S. I'm not trying to see 2025 and beyond. I can't see how anyone can see what's coming and have any sort of hope or optimism. This society is going to shit. Sure, it's good to see capitalism fall. However, I don't want to be a part of the process of this downfall. I laugh when I hear people tell others, as a talking point for not catching the bus, to stick around and see what happens. That's such a terrible coping reason. It's so stupid.

No, I won't see 2025. To those sticking it out, I wish them luck.

 

[cloudyskye]

Anybody else trying to catch the bus before the New Year?

Due to the Canada postal strike it doesn't look like I'll be able to receive SN anytime soon, so I think I've come to the conclusion that hanging will be my method. Not as peaceful it seems, but a lot cheaper. And simpler, I'm too tired from life to source all the meds for SN protocol.

I just hope we get some snow here in December. I would like to wander into the woods at night during a fresh snowfall to find a tree to commit the act. Even though hanging might be very painful, at least the scene would be kind of serene and peaceful. I used to write music, maybe I could do one final song about it to leave the world with something before I go.

Thanks for reading my thoughts. It feels like I'm bleeding out every day until there's nothing left of me.

If anyone else is struggling with nervousness/anxiety/SI when it comes to hanging, I'd be glad to chat in the PMs. I vent on the forum every now and then but it might be nice to talk to someone going through the same mental battles. Wishing you all a nice evening.

If you're in Canada have you researched hypothermia? It might be less painful I don't know. I do know every year in the northern U.S. there are stories of homeless, people getting drunk etc... and accidentally dying from it. I hope you can find peace.

 

[butimbleeding]

I don't want to see the new year honestly but due to personal reasons I want to wait until at least May of next year. It will at least give me time to prepare for the SN method and let me write out all my letters and maybe see some things before I ctb. I hope you're able to see the snow and I hope that it's beautiful. I'm wishing you the best, I hope you find what you're looking for and I hope that it's peaceful.

Thank you so much for your kind words. I hope it's beautiful too because this bipolar depression has sucked all the joy/feeling out of my life…would be nice to have one last semblance of contentedness.

I understand your reasons for wanting to wait and I wish you the best and also hope you find what you're looking for.

If you're in Canada have you researched hypothermia? It might be less painful I don't know. I do know every year in the northern U.S. there are stories of homeless, people getting drunk etc... and accidentally dying from it. I hope you can find peace.

I'm familiar with hypothermia but I've never heard of it used as a suicide method! I don't know if I could pull it off… I think it's pretty painful and truthfully I hate being cold. I never do well in the wintertime, I only like the glimmer of fresh snow but that's about it

 

[Dyingsoon]

I would definitely not want to see another year of this dreaded pathetic existence of mine. I've been tortured more than enough and endured much more than I should have. 4 years of total torture should be it.

 

[Marco77]

Beautiful in the woods with snow. I love that atmosphere.

 

[ChaosArashi]

I agree. I live in NY, work in a prison (seriously not figuratively), my car was just repod Mon. I just hate it here (life). I'm 53. From abuse to DV, I'm a mess…ptsd, ocd, adhd, depression, anxiety. Not to mention the physical issues w dislocated vertebrae in my spine, arthritis & bone spurs in my spine, constant pain. I'm even considering blowing my house up w me in it. Just defeated n sick of this suffering. It never gets better.

 

[rozeske]

I really was hoping I'll be out before the new year too, but with the way things are going for me looks like I'll be stuck longer. I can't go back to the hanging method no matter how cheap, not after spending all this time looking in to sn and ways to get the money. I really really hope I won't have to hang.

 

[ScaredOfMachines]

My goal is to catch the bus before New Years as well. The only reason I've been able to stick around for so long was that I still had some hope for the future, but all of that is gone now. Hopefully I get my SN soon and I can put an end to all of this.