Dont know

[Lara Francis]

Hi.
I dont mean to harp on because i must sound boring by now.!
Its the same shit but different day.
I have not been on for a few days or so because my mind has been so screwed up.
When i try to see a future its impossible.
I have really tried but i will have to give my life to be free of this pain and suffering that i can no longer carry.
When you r young,everything seems possible and would have never thought my life would end in this way.
I have been pushed to the very edge of life and my grip is slipping.
I do believe in fate and maybe this is and has always been mine and i was just so stupid to realise it.i am sorry but i cant even think of a title for this dibble.
I have done with myself and this joke of a life.i hope that being alive is actually being dead and death will become living again . Sorry

 

[Memento Mori]

I was sure that my life's gonna end by my own hand (or choice to fight some organization lol)

"I hope that being alive is actually being dead and death will become living again"

How do you mean that? Can't imagine how that should feel lol

no future in sight means no need to carry on, to be motivated, so yeah...it's a vicious cycle. and just hopelessness that no one takes away from you. maybe only some miracle could help the most dead ones amongst us

 

[Psilo]

Hi.
I dont mean to harp on because i must sound boring by now.!
Its the same shit but different day.
I have not been on for a few days or so because my mind has been so screwed up.
When i try to see a future its impossible.
I have really tried but i will have to give my life to be free of this pain and suffering that i can no longer carry.
When you r young,everything seems possible and would have never thought my life would end in this way.
I have been pushed to the very edge of life and my grip is slipping.
I do believe in fate and maybe this is and has always been mine and i was just so stupid to realise it.i am sorry but i cant even think of a title for this dibble.
I have done with myself and this joke of a life.i hope that being alive is actually being dead and death will become living again . Sorry

Sounds like me.

 

[brighter]

Hi.
I dont mean to harp on because i must sound boring by now.!
Its the same shit but different day.
I have not been on for a few days or so because my mind has been so screwed up.
When i try to see a future its impossible.
I have really tried but i will have to give my life to be free of this pain and suffering that i can no longer carry.
When you r young,everything seems possible and would have never thought my life would end in this way.
I have been pushed to the very edge of life and my grip is slipping.
I do believe in fate and maybe this is and has always been mine and i was just so stupid to realise it.i am sorry but i cant even think of a title for this dibble.
I have done with myself and this joke of a life.i hope that being alive is actually being dead and death will become living again . Sorry

It's not boring if it's tearing you apart sweetie. If you can't talk about it on here where can you? x

 

[Retched]

Hugs! Always feel this is a safe place to vent!

 

[21Neberg]

It's not boring if it's tearing you apart sweetie. If you can't talk about it on here where can you? x

I don't know where I'd be without this forum...

 

[ShadowOfTheDay]

You don't have any good reason to be "sorry," Lara. We are all in the same boat here, and, honestly, it is a breath of fresh air to hear about someone else's struggles. It is a gentle reminder that we are not alone in this☺

 

[Retched]

I don't know where I'd be without this forum...

The weird part is this forum has actually helped me live! It is so awesome there is a place I don't feel like an alien for previously attempting suicide and for having really dark thought for a long time. I'm I'm suicidal remission right now. I know I have support here. I'm reluctant to say in recovery, because I can't say it's gone away forever. And I still have thoughts, but some positive life events that are making me glad I decided to live.

 

[brighter]

The weird part is this forum has actually helped me live! It is so awesome there is a place I don't feel like an alien for previously attempting suicide and for having really dark thought for a long time. I'm I'm suicidal remission right now. I know I have support here. I'm reluctant to say in recovery, because I can't say it's gone away forever. And I still have thoughts, but some positive life events that are making me glad I decided to live.

I don't know where I'd be without this forum...

Well, it's our job as humans, especially here on SS with the most vulnerable of people, to make more positive life events happen and if I'm making people's lives brighter, then on some level I guess I've reached redemption.