Aeselle
Student
- May 11, 2024
- 31
Does anyone else feel like they don't know what they want to do with their life?
I think I do have some means to want to live but at the same time I can't help but have trouble knowing what I want to do now and in the future. I see that many people have families or loved ones they want to live for, not to say I don't have any but I don't want to have to live for someone else. I do want to pursue education and have a stable job in the future but what then? Do I just have to work for the rest of my life to keep living a life where I have to maintain myself just for the purpose of living a life that I feel empty and clueless about?
I feel like I can't fit in, everyone has something they want to do, people they want to be with and just purpose in general. It's not like I don't want to meet people. I just have so much anxiety when it comes to making new friends and I always tend to mess things up. I make so many mistakes not only in relationships but also the education and career field. I feel like an embarrassment to my family, I constantly compare myself to my cousins who are indefinitely doing better than me. Everything just makes me want to be invisible.
I think I do have some means to want to live but at the same time I can't help but have trouble knowing what I want to do now and in the future. I see that many people have families or loved ones they want to live for, not to say I don't have any but I don't want to have to live for someone else. I do want to pursue education and have a stable job in the future but what then? Do I just have to work for the rest of my life to keep living a life where I have to maintain myself just for the purpose of living a life that I feel empty and clueless about?
I feel like I can't fit in, everyone has something they want to do, people they want to be with and just purpose in general. It's not like I don't want to meet people. I just have so much anxiety when it comes to making new friends and I always tend to mess things up. I make so many mistakes not only in relationships but also the education and career field. I feel like an embarrassment to my family, I constantly compare myself to my cousins who are indefinitely doing better than me. Everything just makes me want to be invisible.