Help Don't know how to live, disappointed in world

[KLUF]

I posted a similar post in Suicide discussion to vent and hope to get some interesting replies because Recovery section is 22 times less popular (judging by amount of messages).
I may be repeating myself saying I something like "I don't have a purpose" but it is how it is. I think we can just talk and watch each other's replies. That's what forums are for, aren't they? And I feel relieved when I talk about it, even in text form. Hey hey, panic attack, go away.

I'm going to quote myself:

I am just not interested in life and don't have plans for bigger part of my life ahead.
I don't really want to make plans, because why? Why go through life's struggle for the next 40-50-60 years? We'll end up dead anyway, if not now, then later.

The more I live, the more I understand how world works, everything is basically iterations of attempts to satisfy basic human needs. Feel free to prove me wrong. With that in mind, living becomes way too bland and grey. I don't know how to overcome that. Of course, I can enjoy a sunny day, a rainy day when the air smells fresh, she smell of freshly mowed grass etc. But it all comes and goes. Boring and bland existence stays and will stick for a long time.

In a nutshell, I can say that I'm not ready/too-afraid to die, but don't know how/why to live. A damn existential limbo. Goddamn

Here we are, I'm 100% sure many people have experienced what I am experiencing, do you have anything to say? Any tips on how to overcome it?
I know finding purpose can help. Anything else?

Thank you for taking your time :)

 

[KleinerWolf]

I have a few goals in life I would like to achieve,
things like emigrate away to a country of my choice,
learning German and French,
own a few fine dinning restaurants,
establish passive income so I have the freedom to spend time with people I love
and travel around the world oneday without having to worry about work.
These are some basic goals people may have,
I will have to add more milestones onto this list to make things more exciting as well,

but at end of the day, status/money is nothing but a currency to facilitate new enjoyable fun exciting experiences & sense of comfort.
We are all going to die eventually, but it's about having fun while we are here.

Some people say that meditations/ reading books/ working out helped them stay positive and manage things better.
Some people turn to religions/law of attraction/ volunteering for animal rescues for a higher purpose.

I would say it's quite a skill to learn how to manage your own emotions, be able to acknowledge them and allowing those thoughts to pass through your mind.
Apart from that, I say life is about having fun. Do something that excite you, something you enjoy. For yourself. Big or small.

Enjoy your recovery journey, everyone!

 

[KLUF]

StrokeMyEgoBaby thank you for such a thorough answer. It will contribute to me staying alive and to my well-being.

P.S. I don't know how to mention using "@" here so here we are

 

[KleinerWolf]

StrokeMyEgoBaby thank you for such a thorough answer. It will contribute to me staying alive and to my well-being.

P.S. I don't know how to mention using "@" here so here we are

You will discover something meaningful as your unique life purpose. I believe in you.


As for the "@" you just kinda add it before you tag someone's name
like this hehe @KLUF

 

[Intheo]

There are things I want to experience and accomplish. But I fear in the end, everything is just a distraction. We're all addicts, chasing one high after another.