Help Don't know how to keep doing anything in a vacuum.

[Imaginos]

I really don't. Without anyone around to acknowledge my existence, or anything that I do within it, then nothing means anything. I want to keep exercising, but, as per usual, I can feel myself getting demotivated again since. among other things, I'll never leave the house to ever meet anyone, so what's the point? I'd only be doing it for my own sake, but I don't care at all about me. Health-wise I can't receive any additional benefits from exercise. I've already managed to lose tons of weight and change my diet permanently for the better, and that's something I achieved a number of years ago now. In an immediate sense, I felt I had to. I've always had poor digestion, so turning around my diet was a must in that regard. However, it was also extremely depressing once I did lose all that weight, since I was the only one around to even be aware of it. No one else cared, since no one even knows I exist. In that sense, exercise and weight loss did nothing for improving my disposition. If anything, it just made my existence even more crushing, since even after doing all that I STILL felt like crap and was just as trapped and alone as I've always been. In the end, it was a surface level change that did nothing to address who I am as a person. What can change the nature of who someone really is? I really don't think there's an answer to that.

It's just that, at this point, I wouldn't mind really getting in shape for once, but without anyone around to notice what I'm doing, then what the hell is the point? There isn't one. No one can do anything in a vacuum. You need others there to see what you're doing and to validate you for your effort. Otherwise, it's just a painfully useless waste of time. When it comes to really getting in shape, I'd argue no one does it just for the sake of it, and if someone says they are then they're a filthy liar. Without family or friends or social media around, then they'd be just as demotivated as I am to bother doing it at all. If no one else is around to notice then who cares? This applies to lots of other things for me beyond exercise, but I'm just using it as an example, since I struggle with it constantly and wondering why it is I should bother to get in shape when no one will ever acknowledge or see me in the first place.

They way it always goes is that I exercise for about 2-7 weeks on a fairly consistent basis before the futility gets to me and I give up. Then I'll try picking it up again at some later point, only for the same thing to repeat itself. At the moment, I'm at the tail end of those 2-7 weeks and, once again, I can feel the futility beating me fucking down into submission. Well, assuming someone out there can do this sort of stuff in a vacuum, then I wouldn't mind hearing some advice on how you can manage to do such a thing.

 

[timf]

If one exercises for the sake of appearance, one needs an audience in front of whom to appear. Even if successful in securing an audience, such acknowledgement is usually transitory. This might account for the often unsatisfactory life of those in the theater.

One might be able to secure exercise by offering to help people move from one place to another. People usually appreciate the help and depending on how many appliances they have, it can be quite a lot of exercise.

 

[Imaginos]

If one exercises for the sake of appearance, one needs an audience in front of whom to appear. Even if successful in securing an audience, such acknowledgement is usually transitory. This might account for the often unsatisfactory life of those in the theater.

One might be able to secure exercise by offering to help people move from one place to another. People usually appreciate the help and depending on how many appliances they have, it can be quite a lot of exercise.

I'm an agoraphobic hermit who never leaves the house. Needless to say, but that severely limits my options. I did a lot of work around my house this past Summer (lots of landscaping and random heavy lifting), which got me a bit more noticeably defined than I was before. Maybe I can do so again this coming Summer, but, as I said before, what's the point? No one knows I exist. Even if I really got in shape, no one will care except for me since no one knows I even exist. You can call it vanity if you want, but no one does anything unless there's someone else around to acknowledge their effort. It's not enough just to do it for yourself. If that were the case, then social media wouldn't even exist, or would barely be used by anyone. Even those that don't use it are still getting their validation from somewhere. Whether from their significant other, coworkers, or whatever friends they happen to know.