dont even have energy for last visits

[gottago222]

i kno im going to ctb soon. i have made up excuses and isolated myself from friends since christmas time. does a last visit even matter. im a piece of shit

 

[Dot]

Srry 2 hre u reelng s/ bd - slf nt thnk u r pce of sh*t

 

[rationaltake]

I'm the same.

 

[Crazy4u]

don't feel bad. if they ignore you, ignore them

 

[whatevs]

Well if you are distancing yourself in preparation to soften the blow then you are far from a piece of shit.

 

[gottago222]

don't feel bad. if they ignore you, ignore them

we stay in touch thru vidchats and msgs and i been making excuses why i cant come out. i think i will just visit my one best friend

 

[FuneralCry]

To me there is nothing wrong with isolating yourself. I prefer to stay away from others. I know that it is hard to do things when you have no energy. I wish you the best.

 

[toseeyousmile]

I'm the same, I think Im gonna go soon and have been pretty distant with my friends as well, since most of them are online anyways I'll at least thank them for being kind to me if I could visit idk if I would but I would at least leave a message or like say anything I'd want to say to them before I ctb.

 

[gottago222]

in 11 days my best friend is going to start traveling the world and i am crying because i feel like my ctb is going to ruin what should be the best time of her life

 

[meetapple]

in 11 days my best friend is going to start traveling the world and i am cry because i feel like my ctb is going to ruin what should be the best time of her life

You can't stay aIive just for others.

 

[allesistgut]

You can't stay aIive just for others.

the only reason i'm still hanging on is because of two of my friends.

 

[gottago222]

the only reason i'm still hanging on is because of two of my friends.

i feel that comment was very insensitive. im going no matter what but i still feel like shit about it

 

[allesistgut]

i feel that comment was very insensitive. im going no matter what but i still feel like shit about it

so sorry i didn't mean to be rude or anything like that! i always get worried things (especially in chat) don't come across as i mean. my comment was more just me venting about my own feelings right now (not sure what i meant to achieve by writing it i think i'm just a little lost right now). again really sorry if it came off as me attacking you or anything like that! definitely not what i intended i'm sorry.

and whatever happens and you decide to do i wish you the best.

 

[gottago222]

so sorry i didn't mean to be rude or anything like that! i always get worried things (especially in chat) don't come across as i mean. my comment was more just me venting about my own feelings right now (not sure what i meant to achieve by writing it i think i'm just a little lost right now). again really sorry if it came off as me attacking you or anything like that! definitely not what i intended i'm sorry.

and whatever happens and you decide to do i wish you the best.

oh no im not talking about you im talking about the comment that you were replying to from meetapple. sorry it was hard to tell the context

 

[meetapple]

oh no im not talking about you im talking about the comment that you were replying to from meetapple. sorry it was hard to tell the context

I am sorry. I was trying to make you feel better but It came across wrong.

 

[allesistgut]

oh no im not talking about you im talking about the comment that you were replying to from meetapple

oh! omg sorry lol i feel super stupid. i thought so at first, but wasn't sure and started to overthink it.

sorry it was hard to tell the context

no worries at all.

im going no matter what but i still feel like shit about it

i feel the same, like the only reason i'm waiting is because i don't want my friends to go through any more pain right now.

 

[GentleJerk]

I'm doing the same thing lately with my friends and family. Like whatevs said, if you're doing it to soften the blow then you should have nothing to feel bad about, but until I'm actually gone, I still feel saddened as I deliberately avoid my loved ones. Some part of me is saying I should spend as much time with them as I can while it's still possible, but when I get the chance to, It feels wrong.

 

[Depressed Cat]

You are not a piece of shit as you care about others' feelings, including those of your best friend. It's okay if you don't have the time or inclination to make last visits. You can talk with or send messages to those who've been good to you.

It's tragic that your suffering has led you to this. I'm relieved to know you have a peaceful and reliable way to exit. Whatever happens, I wish you the best and hope you find peace. I will miss you badly.