I've been open and honest about the depression and thoughts of suicide.
Most of the family is aware of my struggles. They all want me to get better, but don't know how to help. Many of them think that medication is the answer.
In some ways I feel that talking about it now will make it easier for them to accept if I ultimately exit via CTB. It wouldn't be a surprise to anyone, but I know it would be devastating for them.
I wish that death was something to be accepted and celebrated, rather than something that Is to be feared. CTB takes so much courage, of which the majority of people do not have.