Discussion Does thinking about your CTB make you feel sick?

[spiritus]

Many of the methods I read about here make me sick. (chemicals, plastic bags, hanging, choking, etc.) I cannot imagine myself applying these methods at peace.

 

[letmejoindeath]

Many of the methods I read about here make me sick. (chemicals, plastic bags, hanging, choking, etc.) I cannot imagine myself applying these methods at peace.

Monoxide seems like the easiest way for me.

You can't imagine these methods because you cannot imagine the amount of suffering people must be going through to use them.

 

[venomousSSërpent74]

it brings me a sense of fear knowing i'll be leaving people who care about me but it also gives me the feeling of carelessness,emptiness, freedom and peace because I know that it will be over soon

 

[lostboi37]

Not really. Ig it makes me sick in a way of like... I got a couple people and cats I'll leave behind and that makes me sad in a way but Ik they'll be better off in the long run and that brings me peace. I don't really think the methods being discussed have anythin to do with any sick feelings.

 

[Busridin'26]

Yeah (if im understanding correctly) sick with fear and fear / discomfort of pain. I wish N was available/ some kinda painless method but I gotta accept that it aint the case anymore

 

[FuneralCry]

To me a lot of the methods do sound rather awful and barbaric, it's horrible how we cannot easily leave this existence in peace without having to suffer in the dying process. It's such a hellish world we exist in where suicide is purposely made this way.

 

[Ducksauce6]

Yes I think of my child hood and even have myself as a child as my phone background.... So I can apologize to that boy every single day .... Never in my life would I of thought I'd have to spray my brains and chunks of head onto the wall and just become more nothing than I almighty am....that haunts me.... But I am taking it day by day... I know I'll cbt ... Have everything I need.... I just don't have any balls is the problem

it brings me a sense of fear knowing i'll be leaving people who care about me but it also gives me the feeling of carelessness,emptiness, freedom and peace because I know that it will be over soon

Same

it brings me a sense of fear knowing i'll be leaving people who care about me but it also gives me the feeling of carelessness,emptiness, freedom and peace because I know that it will be over soon

Same

 

[BlazingBob]

Sometimes, but what makes me more sick is thinking about continuing the way I've been living. Dealing with chronic illness and pain, extreme exhaustion, isolation. Things are going to get much worse if I don't end my life early. I guess what makes me sick is being forced to make such a decision. I just wanted to be normal.

 

[outrider567]

Many of the methods I read about here make me sick. (chemicals, plastic bags, hanging, choking, etc.) I cannot imagine myself applying these methods at peace.

Nitrogen is a peaceful end, you breathe 79 per cent of it every moment

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Thinking about CTB and my CTB plan doesn't make me sick. CTB is a logic consequence I might have to take at some point.

 

[Terranova]

Many of the methods I read about here make me sick. (chemicals, plastic bags, hanging, choking, etc.) I cannot imagine myself applying these methods at peace.

it does'nt really make me sick it just makes me sad and upset that I will die, my death will be unfair and product of many things, but the one that most fucks with me is being trans, I was cursed to be in the body I am in and I never had the chance to help myself as a child so now I suffer to the point where I find it very difficult to live, and i dont see death as an out, as i said it just seems unfair and a culmination of suffering ending in no reward or good outcome since death to me is not peace its just no longer being, wich, again, i find unfair, as far as methods go i'll try hypothermia even if ppl recommend against it, i like the idea of dieing buried in snow, as uncomfortable as it may be i just really like snow lol

 

[Ducksauce6]

it does'nt really make me sick it just makes me sad and upset that I will die, my death will be unfair and product of many things, but the one that most fucks with me is being trans, I was cursed to be in the body I am in and I never had the chance to help myself as a child so now I suffer to the point where I find it very difficult to live, and i dont see death as an out, as i said it just seems unfair and a culmination of suffering ending in no reward or good outcome since death to me is not peace its just no longer being, wich, again, i find unfair, as far as methods go i'll try hypothermia even if ppl recommend against it, i like the idea of dieing buried in snow, as uncomfortable as it may be i just really like snow lol

If your reading this I love you friend.... I said some things to a trans person who was having a hard time ....not because they were trans ....but because they threatened me etc.... So I told MTF her to leave me.alone..... it never stopped she/he made fake posts....called places I used to work at... Sent a nasty photoshopped thingy calling me.a transphobe with devil horns and some more shit ....sent it to my entire friends list like 5x..... I blockedmost ...2/3 of my friends....... I'm cool

....then he sending death threats to my work and placed I used to work and sending my.mother and sisters and dad and GRANDMA death threats!!!.... It was fucking on... I went to war ....and E-war with this person and won.... But later on months later if I blocked the person... He/she committed suicide ... I believe partial hanging... And was successful... (They had been raped.multiple times etc.... But I only knew them through FB because my partner knew them from a haunted house)... But they would always post about being vulnerable and raped in graphic detail ....it was gross and attention. Seeking ...(atleast came.off that way before all the beef anyway and during)




Well long story short.... I think I may have contributed to this person's CTB and I KNOW God is punishing me....for this... probably.... And I'd not...my.cousin...who was like a brother... we both got addicted to heroin and he had wanted to kill himself... I begged him not too but he did anyway ..... We had to get a call from the agodeamn MOURGE ... They called my grandma first for some reason.... They don't say it out loud...but most of the fam.and his family espically associate ... Or atleast attribute me to his downfall....so I know I'm being punished, I hope I don't go to hell .... I do know it's really.... I have been shown and saved by ST. Micheal during a fentanyl overdose, it's the realest shit ever..,and st. Mike saved me . And took me.back to my body .... I couldn't move half my.body for days .....

 

[Quiet_Observer]

Not at all, CTB makes me feel relieved knowing that I have some sense of control

 

[KillMeh]

No, but thinking about steps leading up to it does. Wish I could do it right here and right now. I dont mind vomitting as much as I do living

 

[MatthieuFrederickW]

I actually like the thought that all it takes is for two arteries in the neck to be compressed for about 8 seconds to pass out, and 30 minutes to die.

 

[tranny123]

i feel so at peace with killing myself but most methods make me sick. i don't really get sick when i think of hanging though. that's why it's my method of choice

 

[Nlis2244]

I also can't imagine using slow, even if painless, methods, and i do feel sick when imagining using them. My preferred method would be one that is quick, like jumping. After I attempt, i don't want to linger around for more than a few seconds, and think about what is happening.

 

[Cress]

To be honest with you When I was younger a lot of the violent methods like trains and firearms would make me sick. However I think as I grow older and become more and more desensitized and distressed to reality they become easier to deal with as you age I guess. It took me a great many years to finally become able to deal with the idea of putting a bag over my head And I still don't think I can psychologically visualize more violent methods. Still too young I guess