Venting Does the pretend affections annoy you too

[rozeske]

I guess this only applies to the people whose suicide plan is obvious and who never had much affection shown to know the difference.
There is this pretend in your face type of attention and...idk what to call it, "affection"? people been showing me since I decided to catch the bus. I've been too tired to fake my emotions and I guess my fuck it attitude is kinda obvious, what people call the losing hope look except it isn't me losing hope, I'm just tired of trying and don't wanna be doing this anymore, don't even see the point of it anymore. Anyways I think everyone assumes if they "douse" me with with these 'oh but you are so loved and everybody cares' platitudes and doing things for me here and there that it would lift my spirits or something, except it is painfully obvious that it is so fake it somehow ends up being comical. Sometimes I feel if I'm just being stubborn and if i shouldn't nitpick and just accept them but he only thing it does is annoy me and make me see how much I had been missing and how it could have shifted things, maybe, If only they were genuine. When you have lived this long you would think people would assume you can tell the difference but turns out they don't.

 

[Manaaja]

A lot of people are so robotic.

It's like it doesn't come from their heart and brains, it comes from their programming. A well meaning robot is still a robot. Words are cheap.

Makes me wish people forgot all knowledge of languages for a time. People would actually have to show what they want, need, hate and love with their actions.

 

[Foolishness]

From my perspective as an autistic person and as someone who's had suicidal people on my life, it's because average every day people do not know how to deal with someone who is evidently depressed/suicidal. So they default to saying certain things that seem empty to us, but is just the only way they know how to help. I don't think it's beneficial to assume it's disingenuous or fake. It's actually very hard to communicate with someone who you know may be on the edge. You're worried about saying the wrong thing.

 

[Alo the obvi alien]

Its the reason for my insanity. I don't know who's nice to be nice and who nice to laugh in behind my back. Too many Reginas