it seemed the only fast thing that people felt smooth doing was checking on suicidality status, and then torturing you.
nothing else felt like it could happen quickly enough so that a help process wasn't too drawn-out to be avoid suicidal-severity retraumatization, by putting the severity topic on my mind during the whole wait? no humane responsiveness?
with this time and mind pain problem, I am confused about everything. I'm getting afraid I can't take much more, I haven't been able to keep reading this thread, even while it seemed to have similar situations to me, and that is what I want to be around.
so if I can't handle the form that it's available in, with text / text-to-speech, and probably definitely not inperson support groups, is there anything to connect to or info to be around and handle? I tried a quick break and it might've gone OK, but then more returning painful questions that feel known, fruitless, but still needing asking?
with hospitalization escorts, i was confused if they were avoidable if i knew they were coming? because there's still a 5-20 minute wait for them to arrive?
but idk how I'd know, because staff nods when i say I'm not a doer of suicide, leaves, and does a silent distant report like the silent button that bank staff supposedly have for robberies?
sorry I got confused where to ask, if I talk elsewhere I'll have a chance to be tortured?
I don't know another sometimes safe space. i can't trust warmlines or any policy. even if they don't call cops, they've still said inappropriate things to me, like aggression or political jokes (I don't care in many senses, it was just out of place, and I guess there were alot of things worse than 'misunderstanding of when/where to use humor', like exclusivity stuff- I have to fit in just to use a warmline?)
nothing else felt like it could happen quickly enough so that a help process wasn't too drawn-out to be avoid suicidal-severity retraumatization, by putting the severity topic on my mind during the whole wait? no humane responsiveness?
with this time and mind pain problem, I am confused about everything. I'm getting afraid I can't take much more, I haven't been able to keep reading this thread, even while it seemed to have similar situations to me, and that is what I want to be around.
so if I can't handle the form that it's available in, with text / text-to-speech, and probably definitely not inperson support groups, is there anything to connect to or info to be around and handle? I tried a quick break and it might've gone OK, but then more returning painful questions that feel known, fruitless, but still needing asking?
with hospitalization escorts, i was confused if they were avoidable if i knew they were coming? because there's still a 5-20 minute wait for them to arrive?
but idk how I'd know, because staff nods when i say I'm not a doer of suicide, leaves, and does a silent distant report like the silent button that bank staff supposedly have for robberies?
sorry I got confused where to ask, if I talk elsewhere I'll have a chance to be tortured?
I don't know another sometimes safe space. i can't trust warmlines or any policy. even if they don't call cops, they've still said inappropriate things to me, like aggression or political jokes (I don't care in many senses, it was just out of place, and I guess there were alot of things worse than 'misunderstanding of when/where to use humor', like exclusivity stuff- I have to fit in just to use a warmline?)
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