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OrcWitch
Warlock
- Sep 3, 2021
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My dad has been on my ass about mental health stuff lately. He is my only family member.
I wonder if there is any medication that can just make me feel okay with hearing sounds. I am sober most of the time now but I remember when I was smoking weed all the time my nerves weren't worn so thin by sounds. I know when I'm drunk I can tolerate televisions and neighbor dogs a lot better. I have PTSD and GAD diagnosed so I think I could get anxiety meds if I saw a psychiatrist. Maybe I can get prescribed something that suppresses my nerves and makes it tolerable.
Recently I entered into a "the sky is falling" panic that is part of GAD symptoms. I was reading news about eastern Europe and went into a world war 3 panic paranoia spiral about nuclear war and being obliterated. It took me some time to calm down but something I noticed during it was that my sensitivity to sound flared up that night. For the first time I wonder if my noise sensitivity isn't its own beast but is just a component of my anxiety mental illnesses. Some days I can tolerate noises that on other days feel like complete torture. When it gets really bad I don't feel in control of my emotions or actions until I can find quiet.
My over a decade long struggle with noises is a major pillar of wanting to die and I think if I ever recover I have to figure out a true solution. White noise and/or having my ears plugged/covered is not a complete solution, more of a band aid to apply when I'm already spiraling out of control. I do all these things to cover my hearing out of anxious anticipation of future noises, it's no way to live.
I wonder if there is any medication that can just make me feel okay with hearing sounds. I am sober most of the time now but I remember when I was smoking weed all the time my nerves weren't worn so thin by sounds. I know when I'm drunk I can tolerate televisions and neighbor dogs a lot better. I have PTSD and GAD diagnosed so I think I could get anxiety meds if I saw a psychiatrist. Maybe I can get prescribed something that suppresses my nerves and makes it tolerable.
Recently I entered into a "the sky is falling" panic that is part of GAD symptoms. I was reading news about eastern Europe and went into a world war 3 panic paranoia spiral about nuclear war and being obliterated. It took me some time to calm down but something I noticed during it was that my sensitivity to sound flared up that night. For the first time I wonder if my noise sensitivity isn't its own beast but is just a component of my anxiety mental illnesses. Some days I can tolerate noises that on other days feel like complete torture. When it gets really bad I don't feel in control of my emotions or actions until I can find quiet.
My over a decade long struggle with noises is a major pillar of wanting to die and I think if I ever recover I have to figure out a true solution. White noise and/or having my ears plugged/covered is not a complete solution, more of a band aid to apply when I'm already spiraling out of control. I do all these things to cover my hearing out of anxious anticipation of future noises, it's no way to live.
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