I ordered SN last week and everything from then on just trying to piss me off even more. I have bottled up so much emotion that I feel like Im gonna burst.
LastFlowers
the haru that can read
- Apr 27, 2019
- 2,170
All the minor things are simply the straws that break the camel's back.
not_a_robot
"i hope the leaving is joyful, & never to return"
- May 30, 2019
- 2,121
Yes. For twenty years I felt like I was one tiny mishap away from ctb. People thought I was just being melodramatic but I literally lived my life feeling like I was always just minutes from doing it, kept knives handy at all times.
I'm more stable now but dealing with people always puts me right back in that place; they are all just so dumb and conniving and childishly manipulative. I just want to ctb to get away from them, to never have to look at or speak to another person again.
I'm more stable now but dealing with people always puts me right back in that place; they are all just so dumb and conniving and childishly manipulative. I just want to ctb to get away from them, to never have to look at or speak to another person again.
Jon86
Specialist
- Apr 9, 2018
- 369
I'm suicidal basically all day long and have been for around 10 years. There are a few brief moments where I forget but never for long, literally every hour i'm awake I have suicidal thoughts.
Halo13
Wizard
- May 9, 2019
- 671
Yes, been on the verge of ctb constantly for almost two decades. Small things can easily set me off but I try to keep it in check because I can't handle another failed ctb without proper planning.
