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Menschenmühle

Menschenmühle

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Jan 21, 2022
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I personally have chosen a painful suicide method, it is full suspension hanging. I would also like to cut my wrists beforehand as to increase the painfulness of the process.
I choose it this way because I want to feel something, as to express my feelings through pain.
 
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leavingsoon99

I'm at peace... Finally.
Mar 16, 2023
721
I'm using a gun, so I'm not sure how much pain I will feel. I've resigned myself to the reality that it will be painful to leave. However, the pain of staying alive will be greater. I wish you peace and clarity in your journey.
 
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Brokensoulwalking

Brokensoulwalking

Member
Mar 14, 2023
45
From what I understand there is no real pain free method.

The body is built to survive even if the mind disagrees.

I opened my wrists in the past and hung myself over a door. One failed due to being sloppy drunk. The other my partner came home early and opened the door.

I wish you luck, but there is no pain free method. All the SN posts have put me off that completely.

My friend threw himself from the tenth story but hit something on the way down and lived for an hour before passing on.

Any thing can happen I'm afraid
 
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hellispink

hellispink

poisonous
May 26, 2022
1,234
I like self destruction. I just want it to be fast. I dont mind the pain as long as its fast. There is a difference between pain and then torture which is a long time before dying
 
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soft-flower345

🌸I'm ashamed of who I've become🌸
May 15, 2023
93
My method is the same as yours and for a very similar reason. I want to try to express the agony inside of me when I ctb, I think because my trauma was always dismissed or minimized by my abusers and anyone I cried out for help to was easily manipulated into shaming me for them. For some reason I think it would look tragically beautiful.
 
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exitplease

Wanderer
Jul 10, 2023
145
From what I understand there is no real pain free method.

The body is built to survive even if the mind disagrees.

I opened my wrists in the past and hung myself over a door. One failed due to being sloppy drunk. The other my partner came home early and opened the door.

I wish you luck, but there is no pain free method. All the SN posts have put me off that completely.

My friend threw himself from the tenth story but hit something on the way down and lived for an hour before passing on.

Any thing can happen I'm afraid
What do you mean the SN posts have put you off completely?
 
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AllFoxedOut

AllFoxedOut

Arcanist
Jun 7, 2023
472
What do you mean the SN posts have put you off completely?
there are reports from witnesses and survivors of SN ingestion that it is not completely painless
 
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exitplease

Wanderer
Jul 10, 2023
145
there are reports from witnesses and survivors of SN ingestion that it is not completely painless
Fuck. Are you serious? Was it a lot of pain? Do you know where they felt the pain? I am so devastated learning this. I thought it was the most painless option. This is the worst news.
 
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AllFoxedOut

Arcanist
Jun 7, 2023
472
Fuck. Are you serious? Was it a lot of pain? Do you know where they felt the pain? I am so devastated learning this. I thought it was the most painless option. This is the worst news.
you can read about people's experience from both successful and unsuccessful SN attempts here.

but commonalities seem to be:

  • difficulties breathing, gasping for air
  • nausea and stomach discomfort
  • rapidly beating heart
  • convulsions
 
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Kerrtu

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May 8, 2023
474
Fuck. Are you serious? Was it a lot of pain? Do you know where they felt the pain? I am so devastated learning this. I thought it was the most painless option. This is the worst news.

I don't know if the post remains, but there was a member who documented for another member here. SN was the method. All said and done, I believe the person died within the hour. Did the person struggle? A bit, yes. The person vomited at least twice, and for the remainder of the time their breaths were becoming slower and more labored. The person became unconscious I'd say rather quickly, all things considered.

I'm sick and just got done (hopefully 🤞) vomiting. It was awful, as is the case with vomiting most of the time. Haven't really heard of a good puke. Anyway, as I was sitting on the floor retching, sweating, the thought or realization crossed my mind that I'd likely be in a very similar scenario when I CTB with SN.

It's not going to be exactly peaceful until it's truly over.

I accept this.

In the past I've tried hanging and an overdose with stabbing. The overdose-stabbing combo did almost get me. It wasn't thought out for months, planned…I acted on impulse.
 
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Huggs

Wish for peace
Jul 6, 2023
209
All the truly non-painful methods are out of reach. I've chosen one that is probably painful, SN. It's the one that looks the least painful to me.
 
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exitplease

Wanderer
Jul 10, 2023
145
you can read about people's experience from both successful and unsuccessful SN attempts here.

but commonalities seem to be:

  • difficulties breathing, gasping for air
  • nausea and stomach discomfort
  • rapidly beating heart
  • convulsions
Thank you SO MUCH AllFoxedOut! That is so helpful and informative. Not as easy or as peaceful as I thought but it's certainly better than many alternatives.
 
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ctb-soon

ctb-soon

Student
Jul 12, 2023
166
I personally have chosen a painful suicide method, it is full suspension hanging. I would also like to cut my wrists beforehand as to increase the painfulness of the process.
I choose it this way because I want to feel something, as to express my feelings through pain.
I can relate in some ways.

While it's not the pain, I want to be able to be suspended and know that I will be conscious enough to know I will not survive. It may sound strange, but I want to be able to say "I just killed myself" just before I slip away forever.
 
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アホペンギン

Jul 10, 2023
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I personally have chosen a painful suicide method, it is full suspension hanging. I would also like to cut my wrists beforehand as to increase the painfulness of the process.
I choose it this way because I want to feel something, as to express my feelings through pain.
Im surprised i came across someone who is adamant about ctbing in a painful way. In my case, i'm too cowardly to do anything painful. I want it to be quick and painless and a very high death rate.
 
Suicidebydeath

Suicidebydeath

No chances to be happy - dead inside
Nov 25, 2021
3,558
pain isn't enough :(
 
busybee

busybee

Experienced
Jul 5, 2023
210
I am still tempted by cyanide. Sure it will hurt like a bitch but with a high enough dose lights go out soon after. SI just gotta be lacking one moment and my fate would be sealed.
 
diviosd

diviosd

just a girl who's kinda sad
Aug 7, 2023
294
I'd prefer to not have to use a painful method, but I'll take whatever I can get. I just want to get it over with, whether it's painful or peaceful.
 
CW36

CW36

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Jul 23, 2023
839
Painful is subjective. Immolation isn't up for debate, but other deaths deemed painful can be argued to be less so than supposed peaceful methods. Short, sharp pain lasting seconds is better than prolonged pain on a smaller scale imo.
 
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